My Man Who Is Not My Man

I met this guy last year in March. I was actually very tired of everything and everyone. I was then experiencing real life and all that comes with it. At that time, I had had my own fair share of relationships, not even romantic relationships but friendships and bestieships. I knew I needed to just focus on myself and make money because truly, maybe I was meant to be alone in this world.

My sister would normally say the world was too big and there was surely someone somewhere for me but to me I felt I was really missing out on all the fun and relationship goals that my friends were doing. Anyway, so I met this guy and he was so sweet to me. I actually felt like he was just pretending to be nice and would definitely show me pepper after a while. After my girl maths and calculations, I had to just give him some months and he would show his true colors. Weeks turned into months and this guy was still nice to me.

I was now thinking when exactly will the true colours even show because I was getting tired so I gave up on my little detective career.Eventually, he became my closest friend and then after some tests here and there, he became my man who is not my man. You definitely would be asking what does this one too mean but then as full blooded Gen Z, I don’t think I have any other explanation for this.

He is really generous, intelligent, considerate, understanding….I can’t even believe I am admitting all of these things here right now because around him, I am a hard girl. I like the fact that he is my safe space and I can go to him about anything at all.
One thing I know about myself is my bad decision choices yet, he’s always there to correct me calmly and politely no matter how terrible the outcome of my actions are.

For some reason, I’ve found myself becoming less stubborn around him(his juju is strong). I can see that I’ve greatly improved since I met him. You are probably wondering why I’m not with him after all that I’ve said. For me, I feel like I have other things to do, memories to make, places to go and people to meet. I genuinely think being in a relationship will be a hindrance to all of these and guess what? he 100% agrees and doesn’t mind. I feel like those of you who have been following me for a while now will know which man I’m talking about.

I know others will also be here shouting eiii Abena because I’m definitely the number one preacher of fear men. Now that Miss Fear Men(me) is suddenly here talking about her man, I know it might come off as a big shock to most people.
Anyway, I’m still very much single and without a man(don’t say eiii).

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