Where will the fuckers end shit for me.
Tired.
Hungry.
Angry.
We all feel these feelings all the time. Even when we are not thinking about them it is easy to experience them.
HAHAHAH
I don't like this line of thinking. Especially how I am painting them to you. I am not in a good frame of mind at the moment.
Had an argument with my older brother.
Felt like I will kill myself if I stay here in my mums house this morning. Went for a long walk to clear my head. I am trying to not think of problems so I choose Philippines as my base and guess what. My family who tells me they want to helop and care for me in my lowest pint in life at this moment of life. Cant help themselves to push their bullshit my way. They start acting like a kid when I don't do what they want me to do. And start acting like I am in a good frame of mind and should just do what they have been doing when they are in Philippines. FUCKING IDOITS. I am not doing shit for anyone at the moment and I will not be push down with what I am feeling and what I think is the correct way.
FUCKNG humans. Emotions start flying and I have fucking remind them I am not in the same state of mind as them. FUCKERS. Do they want me to kill myself so I will have no more problems. I am already overwhelmed with my own shit and they can help to add their shit on top of mine.
They think I am so happy to be all alone and be single. To go through the beginning when I spent 20 plus years to get to the pint where I feel like I lost everything.
Here's what I think. If they keep on going I think I will have to end all of this. I think the best way is to get that fucking shotgun downstairs and blow our enemies heads off then at the very least my death will be useful for them in the end. Yeah. They are probably trying to push me over the edge so I will end them with me and the do not have to get their hands dirty.
FUCK you stupid kids.
Fuck me too cos I am too weak. They keep telling me to be strong but do not spare me the moment to try and kneecap me anyway they can.
Fuckers!
The end but not the end for now.
Lets see if I survive this.
Best to stay away for now aku..
Thanks witty hope your swiping is not getting swipered lol.
Chill bro life has always been full of shits but who cares right? Everybody knows that but why do some people still find a way to be happy in this hell hole of a life? for me it's all about the perspective. A change of perspective is really helpful in dire times. I know I'm too young to tell you stuff but I've been through my fare share of dip shits when I was a little younger 😂
Whenever I feel so down what I do is go to the sea or a park alone and just bask myself in loneliness and feel the breeze of the sea or hear the sound of (not so silent) nature parks. When I arrive home (the problems still there but I act like I don't know shit, or I'm blind and deaf 🤣)
A long time ago a friend of mine told me... "Let the problem solve itself" and that's what I usually do lol and honestly it works 100% of the time for me lol but I think it's much safer to say that "Time heals" instead of "Let the problem solve itself" 😅
Anyways just chillax and take care bro, don't sweat the small and big stuff and focus more on yourself coz that's your life. Do what you want and don't care what others think as long as you don't go out and stepping on other people then you are fine 😉
Thanks pink