Barely Powering Through

I am writing this post from the hospital where it looks like I will be spending most of this month. I am writing this post for two main reasons

  • A general health update

  • It's an apology for not catching up with my engagement

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A General Health Update

Very few people here are aware of this but I have been having a serious case of insomnia for the past few weeks. It has gotten to a few clinical cases at times of sleep paralysis and sometimes I would be awake yet too tired to do anything. Sometimes it would be an hour or two before I started to move. I have gone to a few checkups but no concrete result.

This also hasn't really been helped by the fact that there's this very off-putting power schedule happening. Basically, the power would be on for two hours then off for another two hours. Whenever that happens I have to turn off certain house devices like the AC as the power generator can't power it.

That has its own set of issues as even when I manage to fall asleep, I am forced to wake up soon after.

There's also the issue of heat. I can't stand the heat, simple as that. And without AC anything I am on, be it a chair or bed gets either sweaty or feels on fire.

All the switching but hot and cold got me really sick and we're not even into the hottest period of the year here. From one side, this has been giving some ideas that I managed to turn into creative writing prompts of the sort. On the other, those are some really dark thoughts. But, nothing too serious.

I have pulled my HBD lately to try and pay for some of the stuff and I should be able to pay the rest within the upcoming months. So, I just know everything will be okay and there's nothing to stress over which is good as my level of stress has been high the past few months. So much so that about 10% or so of my hair turned grey. That is why, overall, I am just trying to relax.

This leads me to the second point of the post.

Apology For Lack Of Engagement

I honestly have been trying hard to keep up with everything but it has been difficult to do with 2-4 hours of sleep in total scattered throughout the day. Sometimes I literally try to write something and end up hanging on a word for 20 minutes.

I really do apologize for the lack of engagement. Before this setback, I was also featured in the Engagement League because I was rather active. Either way, this is my own doing.

My "Break"

You could think of this month as my break even though I will still be around writing posts and commenting. I can't really afford to take an actual break but hopefully, this idea works. Hopefully, by the end of this month, I will either get back to the usual level of activity. If not, I will just take a break regardless of the outcome.

Thank you for reading.



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I hope everything works out for you. Dealing with health issues has to be taken seriously and comes first above anything else.

Take care, and feel better soon. I hope you get a proper diagnosis.

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Make sure you eat lots of cucumbers and avoid meat and heavy-duty digestion foods. By cucumbers, I meant fresh ones and not salty pickled ones. Sometimes, the heat inside the body has to be lowered by foods that calm and induce sleep too. Not medical advice but I am somewhat a similar type.

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That's very good advice actually! Cucumbers will hydrate as well as nourish the body. And it's easy to digest. :)

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Thanks for sharing about your health condition. Yes, take a break if you need to. Hoping for your recovery.

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So sorry you're going through a tough time. Don't worry about us, we'll upvote and love you whenever you're here, just get better. Your health is more important than anything.

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Quite a tough situation to go through. Insomnia is no funny thing. Sleep is very important to our bodies and when it's out of whack, nothing will make sense.

I'm sorry about all you are going through. I hope the hospital can give you proper diagnosis and treatment. Get better soon. 🙂

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Dang man. Sorry to hear about it! Prayers up for you and I hope you get through it. We need ya'!!

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Take care your self amir,wishing you quick recovery from the insomnia , not being able to sleep well is not a small problem because sleep is one of the most important thing we need as a human... you will be fine

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Oh wow dude! Sorry to hear you're struggling so much!

Have you tried good-quality CBD before? I'm not sure if this will go against any specific religious beliefs, but I have many people using CBD to aid toward improved sleep, with very positive results.

Wishing you all the best on this tough journey!
!CTP

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Get well soon. If after your break you're still not getting enough sleep. Drink a bottle of rum or whiskey all in one chug. If that doesn't put you to sleep I don't know what's gonna.😎

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I hope you get better soon. Your health is priority number 1!

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Hey man, I'm sorry to hear that. I didn't know you were feeling low but I fully understand. If you ever need to talk, you know where I am. I'm switching to nights tomorrow night so I'll have lots of time to talk

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It seems that everyone has a lot of stuff going on this time of year. I have seen several posts from people (including myself) indicating that their engagement is down. I haven' seen any as severe as what you are going through though. I hope they get it sorted out for you! Take care of yourself!

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Dear @amirtheawesome1 you spread so much joy around that it's hard to imagine someone like you in the hospital. I know about insomnia but I don't know anyone who suffers from it. The lack or inability to sleep will definitely take a toll on anyone and affect their day to day activeness. I do hope they fix the power issue soon enough and I also do hope that you get better soon enough. Get as much sleep as you can while on this break. Sending you love and light ♥️

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Sorry to hear that, Amir. I hope they get things taken care of quickly.

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Um, good greens and gravy, Amir! You are going through chaos and yet still apologizing for not commenting!?

I truly hope you take care of yourself and get all the rest and answers that you need. We'll all be here when you come back, post, and stuff, I just want you to heal up! Insomnia is the worst and yours sounds truly awful.

Please take care!!

!CTP

!PIZZA

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Completely understand, lack of sleep is damaging to health. It destroys focus and mental energy. Do what you can, take a break when you need it. We'll be here, we're not going anywhere.

!LUV
!ALIVE
!CTP

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Just take care of yourself ... Hive is a system ... you are a person among people ... if you are ill, the main thing is not your output of stories and content but that you heal. We understand. Please feel better soon ... lemon water and ironically hot soups and teas will help you cool down...

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I hope you get better very soon. Please take care of yourself. Your health is most important. Thanks for sharing.

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I'm so sorry you're going through this. And no need to apologize to anyone, although it speaks of your character that you did.
I've heard from friends that sleep paralysis can be pretty scary, I hope it's not that bad for you! My eldest daughter had something similar to it, and it wasn't fun for her, I know that!

I really hope you feel better soon, and that they may find out what causes the issues.
And if you need to, take that break. Your health is more important.

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All the best Amir, and I hope you find the answer to a more settled sleeping pattern and get the rest you need to power through m8!

So, I just know everything will be okay and there's nothing to stress over which is good as my level of stress has been high the past few months. So much so that about 10% or so of my hair turned grey. That is why, overall, I am just trying to relax.

I've not really talked about this much on hive, but in my 20s and into my early 30s I suffered from severe depression/anxiety disorder... and no matter how many anti-depressants they gave me they just made it worse. My hair started turning grey when I was 26, so I know how real that can be.

When you're constantly living in a stress state you end up in 'fight or flight' mode continually, which is not a very good place to be. Fcks with your adrenalin production and I'm pretty sure has led to me having insulin resistance in my middle age.

Anyway, I keep my fingers crossed 🤞 that your sleep improves because it sounds to me that it's the catalyst for your stress.

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Take care of yourself first, worry about engagement after. We all know you love us :D

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You take care of yourself first! If you don’t take care of yourself in real life then what’s the point of a place like hive here? We will be here when you are feeling better!

That’s such a load of shit with the electricity flipping on and off. That would drive me nuts!

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