I Knew It Was Trouble But I Still Went Thru With It 🤦‍♀️

about 1 year ago (Edited)

Last year I knew I should have left that company ASAP and yet I still stayed for almost the entire 2022. If I can turn back time I would probably work somewhere else. Alas, it was a mistake I can never erase. 😬

_{(I chose this Weekend Experiences community writing prompt - When you knew better - because I just have to get this off my chest. Haha. Perfect opportunity to finally write about it! This could also count as Pushing boundaries since I pushed myself to the wrong limit. 😂)}

When you somehow know you shouldn't do it or stay, etc., don't rationalize like I did. Even if you want to help someone or prove to someone that you're right, just walk away. You don't have to suffer with them if your gut tells you to go the other way. It will always lead to bad things eventually.

I didn't really want to work in that company but I let myself be convinced. Hey I could choose to even go with another manager but alas, I didn't. Unfortunately I cannot undo what happened anymore. It caused me a lot of stress, anger and anguish like I never have before. 😠 I have no one to blame but me.

Several times, I felt like resigning but heck I still let myself get dragged in further to continue working with them. Felt pity towards someone and so I suffered with them even if it's not necessary. Ugh. Serves me right huh? 💔

My intuition told me to leave while I could. Actually it was kinda panicking and wanted me to bolt twice (for no reason, or so I thought). But I rationalized and stayed until eventually a worse problem occurred. 😂 That was the only time I decided to finally "leave" before everything got much worse. Despite doing that, even up to last week I was negatively affected by this company. 🤦‍♀️

Only one more thing is not over yet. One of my clients had a problem with the property developer. And both of them aren't budging at all. Oh well. I tried to solve it but both sides aren't listening to me. What else can I do then, right? 😕 I don't have any control over the company or even the client so I am just waiting for the end result.

That problem is hanging over my head. I have prayed to God for it to get resolved but I can't wait for it to finally happen. 🙏 I hope it ends ASAP. I just want to get it over with. 😪

_{The mysterious Mt. Makiling...}

My only consolation out of everything was I was able to go to various provinces I wouldn't have gone to by myself. Of course we could use the service vehicles each time there's a property site trip. No it's not possible to use it for detour trips or sight seeing. Haha.

But I was able to see Mt. Makiling even though it's from a distance. Also saw Mt. Arayat too! (No pics though.) The latter I'm not sure if I saw before and I just didn't bother with it. 🌄

I even got to see another mountain plus a mountain range in Bataan. I don't know the names though. Haha sorry for not being familiar with these.

_{Somewhere in Bataan... there's a mountain faraway.}

Who wouldn't appreciate such views while driving eh? Even if I was just a passenger I still enjoyed the scenery. I couldn't take a good photo of all the beautiful sights beside the roads because we were moving. So most pics are just of mountains. 😊

Anyway that's all I enjoyed despite the problems that arose. Road trips are 😍 especially when the view is so green and inspiring.

There were also times I had to travel via public commute though whenever there was a "last minute" client. Of course I would then go to our provincial sites by bus and jeepney. That's the only time I could roam around wherever I wanted and take more photos. 😉

Despite the many travels ang sights seen, I would still turn back time if I could and undo the wrong decisions I made. Oh well. I have to take responsibility for what I can. Just one more issue and then it's all over. 🙏 When that happens, I could then consider this life chapter closed.

Happy weekend!

XOXO,
@artgirl