I know he could hear me, still unconscious and I told him so... one weekend (WEEK 181)
-Arthur Schnitzler
We are human, or at least I think we are, and as a human, I have spent a few weekends in bed. But it's really been many years since I've been sick.
Living as healthy a life as possible and with good management of emotions, that means that certain thoughts or sadnesses don't pass into the body and therefore I don't get sick.
The closest I remember was a little over 6 years ago, before I moved to another country when, sorting things to donate and making a deep detachment from many things that had marked my life, I fell with fever one weekend, many motions together affected my body.
But it was only the weekend, with no consequences for my day-to-day life or my work. I was able to teach computer classes normally on Monday as I always did.
It's the weekends where I relax and maybe what I worry about during the week takes its toll on my body.
But when I read this topic a very special weekend in my life came to my mind, the last weekend my grandmother was alive. These are experiences you never forget.
She had a brain tumour, inoperable.
Six months the doctors diagnosed him as having that long to live, just six months, and that's how long he lived.
The tumour never metastasised, but it grew in her head... it affected the motor part. The left side of his body was like dead. She had convulsions that deformed her face.
She could no longer do anything on her own, she had been a self-sufficient woman all her life, and now she was in a wheelchair.
Everyone told me and my family to take her in, but we didn't. We preferred to stay with my brother and my family. My brother and my mother and I preferred to take care of her ourselves.
She never lost consciousness, she knew something was wrong, she was very lucid, too lucid, but her body was no longer responding to her.
When she was diagnosed with cancer, she spent more than two weeks in hospital and therefore more than two weekends. They were very hard, as news like this is very strong and seeing her helpless even more so.
But I will never forget that weekend before she left this world, the beginning of spring, the trees with flowers and she was already unconscious in the hospital and I was by her side.
The continuous convulsions had stopped, it was September 21st, a Saturday, and the sun was streaming through the hospital window.
As the flowers bloomed, her life was gone.
She was very Catholic and was already in a coma, so sitting beside her I prayed the rosary, because I knew she heard me and that she would have liked it.
I remember that I was convinced that, although she was no longer moving, she could hear me. It was Sunday afternoon.
I came close to her ear and told her: I love you grandmother, I love you very, very much and I always will.
At that moment a tear fell down her cheek and I knew she heard me. There was nothing more to say.
The following Thursday she left, it was 26 September 2002. And I was at peace because I told her what was most important in life.
That weekend I learned that the inner self always listens and that we must say things in life, and not wait. There is no time to wait to show your feelings.
If you wait, maybe it will be too late, you never know when time is running out.
Thank you @galenkp for this space, for this place and opportunity to express ourselves and bring our experiences. Today has been very emotional for me to write this.
Thank you all so much for reading this far, thank you. Big greetings to all and see you next time.
Amonet.
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Thank you!
I think knowing how to manage emotions is the best way to ensure a healthy life dear friend @avdesing
It made me very sad to read about your grandmother's illness, it's good that you expressed your feelings and that she listened to it; It is as you say, we have to know how to express what we feel and say it daily, one never knows what awaits us in this life.
I take this opportunity to wish you a beautiful weekend.
Thank you very much! It was very exciting to write this, many experiences came to my mind, thank you for always being there! Big hug! Have a great weekend!❤️
A very beautiful experience, thank you for sharing it.
Thank you so much José.✨
I can feel each of the words...it's not long that I lost my Dad, I had been with him since last 6 years...it pains a lot
Yes it hurts, it's hard to explain in words.... it was emotional to write these words. Thank you @steemflow ✨
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This put me in my emotions.
The days before your grandmother passed must have been really difficult. Just looking at her knowing every minute brings her closer to the end and bracing yourself up to grieve. It's sad.
I've learned early to give people their flowers every moment I get. Just express the feelings as is
Yes, those days were difficult... I knew the end was coming but she would be at peace.
Thank you so much for connecting with these emotions. Hugs!❤️
Grandparents, parents leaving us. Such sad and painful moments... I'm sorry your grandmother had such a hard end and glad you were able to pass on your love to her in that final moment. Many of us don't get to do that, I didn't... and I'm sorry.
It was a very hard experience but if this sharing helps someone else it is the best thing that can happen. Not everyone can, but the feelings are there all the same. Thank you @bluemoon ❤️
How touching your story, and when a tear came to her eye because I'm sure she heard you, she left happy, surrounded by those who loved her most and now she no longer suffers, she is in heaven watching over all of you, in peace ❤️
That's right Yamila and for those who say that people in comas don't listen to anything, that's not true, they always talk. Saying what we feel is very important. Thank you!❤️
Hey! Este post realmente me dejó con mucha nostalgia 🥹 Mi abuela partió de este mundo en el año 2020, y puedo decir que es una de las mejores personas que he conocido en toda mi vida. Mi abuela era una mujer fuerte, independiente, responsable y con un corazón gigante. Siempre fue más como una amiga, nos veíamos todos los fines de semana, íbamos al cine, a comer o a ver obras. La extrañamos muchísimo, pero agradezco cada día por haber conocido a tan increíble ser humano ❤️
The love you gave each other will always remain and the beautiful memories are the most important thing. Hugs Gloria!❤️
uyy today if you hurt me amonet dolo think of losing my grandmother for me would be a hard blow, yours was very brave must not be easy to know that you are very self-sufficient that maybe you do not like to bother anyone and from one moment to another depend on others, for the most basic things, the time we have not bought and sometimes we forget that great detail, a big hug from a distance
We must not waste time and always say how much we love others, in those 6 months she took off her strong armour and I met a different grandmother. Life is surprising sometimes. Hugs Monica!❤️
She listened to you and you had the proof of that, although beyond that, you could feel it.
I'm sure they were very difficult moments, it is hard to see those we love helpless (indefensos) in the face of an illness.
A hug!
Yes, I felt that he was going to listen to me and I was able to prove it, they were complicated moments but he is at peace and always by my side. Thank you @verdesmeralda ✨
It is strong to see a loved one in those conditions, one suffers with them, but they are already resting, and as you rightly say we must take advantage in showing our love and tell them how much we love them in life, beautiful, post, friend, greetings.
Thank you very much @ikigaidesign , that's what I think, we should not miss this opportunity while they are with us.❤️