Just in time (save me)
I have always wondered how I do it, how do I do it? I still don't know even as I am writing this. If I can remember correctly it was @tengolotodo that gave it the name. I'd just been doing it back to back and it had become a norm for me. Apparently, he had been doing the same thing at that point in time. It is called the "Just in Time" JIT for short. I can't even remember the exact day it started, but I believe it was something I slowly gravitated towards during my first year on hive when all my days were so choked up I could only write at night. And before long it just became the norm to write just before the end of the day.
The thing about me is I have always been someone who is capable of activating deadline mode. Whenever my there is a deadline approaching or the day Is almost over my brain goes into hyper mode. A weird state where I am suddenly faster and things I couldn't do before become easier. I can not count the number of times I have procrastinated and then I look at the time, realize it is almost the deadline and I suddenly blaze through everything with the strength, brain power, and skill I wasn't even aware I had before. And the crazy thing about it is how draining and nerve wracking it can be during the process. I often find myself panicking and begging God to let me make it, telling myself I will never put myself through this much pain again, and praying for a miracle. And then when the miracle finally happens there's a peace and calm that suddenly washes over me. And then unsurprisingly, I go ahead and do the very same thing the very next day. It is almost masochistic lol.
And then there's also my internal stress alarm. There have been multiple times I have fallen asleep with a deadline to achieve and then like magic. No alarm, no one to wake me up, my body automatically recognizes what is about to happen (after all I slept with the task in mind) and automatically jerks up with what turns out to be just enough time to salvage the situation.
I keep telling myself, one day you're going to mess up and it is going to hurt so bad. Once in a while I even want to mess up when it is not so detrimental, why? So that I can face the consequences of my actions and finally put an end to the JIT, but then I am unable to willingly let myself not meet up. Because if I do, then it won't be enough to spark a change. I know, I know, I am sounding like a crazy person, but I often do this sometimes. It is fun to self reflect and look inward. So now, let me ask questions, does anyone have any ideas on how I can deliver myself from JIT? Oh and FYI, if you look closely you'll see that this post is also a Just in Time post. Somebody save me
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Lmao! You have just spoken on behalf of many of us here. It's a natural thing, especially when we don't exactly plan ahead. I do it, too, and often find myself playing the JIT card. In the times I performed like I really wanted, I mostly likely already "primed" myself beforehand, but repeating it doesn't always happen much.
Can't say what the remedy is, but I know setting a new mental deadline doesn't exactly help. Lol. Perhaps being accountable to oneself alone is the challenge, so having someone else play that role may work. That's what I'm trying...
Hehe, that's actually a good idea. Let me go and look for someone to help me.
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Hehe yep me and JIT! It is the thrill, we thrive on pressure. Deadlines are fun....
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