The Darkness

How did I get there? I don't know. I tried really hard to remember, but my head was blank. I couldn't even remember my own name. I looked around and there was nothing but dust, waste, and emptiness for miles. But then, I saw something from a distance. It was a signpost.

"Perhaps it could provide answers I crave." I said to myself

My legs were aching, but I had to keep going, it wasn't so far anymore.

Finally I stood in front of the small signpost.

"Walk in your path and you will arrive at your darkness. Face it, conquer it, become one with it." were the words inscribed with the most jagged handwriting ever.

Confusion plagued my mind, but for some reason it made sense to me. Almost like I'd been through this before. There was no way to explain it, but I felt like I knew just what to do.

Strolling in the depths of the unknown, navigating uncharted territory, I stood face to face with the darkness. I thought I wasn't going to be afraid. All the doubts and all the fear, all the fleeting thoughts that'd always come and go putting doubt into my heart and making me tremble, they were all still there, I thought that they'd vanish, but no they didn't vanish. I could feel my feet tremble as I walked slowly towards the void. Admiring the nothingness unconsciously.

Different sentences kept playing in my head.

"It is all pain, you have to confront it, face your demons, every good thing comes through pain, hard way or the harder way."

Soon I stood in front of the darkness, I didn't even realize I'd paused. I'd expected that they'd be a different feeling standing in front of it. Like a force of energy, a sound, crackling, even a little gust of wind, but no, it was completely silent.

It had never occurred to me what would be at the other side of this wall of darkness, somehow I'd chosen to not think of it, but standing here I couldn't help but wonder. There was no way I could go in and come back out. It was all or nothing.

"what if I kill myself?" I thought to myself.

The internal battle grew stronger as I tried to convince myself to take the step forward.

"Embrace the darkness. Don't think too much, just do it. Set yourself free."

I closed my eyes, and I took the steps forward and watched as the darkness consumed me.

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