Lose and Find Yourself - inkwell prompt #12
Do you believe in life's coincidences dear reader? Is it something that really happens by chance, or are there some forces operating in the background of your existence that sometimes help you get back on track...?
Well, here is my brand new real life story that just happened today:
LOSE AND FIND MYSELF
I have actually been sick for16 days now. The first time I was just sleeping, then it got better but I wasn't really capable of anything. Actually it is "only" a flu virus and yet there is much more going on in my life right now. Especially the last week I had even more and more the feeling as if I had lost myself somewhere and would slowly but surely slip into a real depression.
Yet somehow I didn't care. I didn't care about anything, just sleeping.
Reading? Writing? Dreaming? Living? Yes. That was before and will come again someday. That's about my state of mind where I've been the last few days.
Tonight I had just spent a little time on the Blockchain. Noticing that once you're not active on a regular basis, your notification feed can get very very, even veeeeeeeery quiet.
"Oh yeah, how quickly would you be forgotten if you stopped posting?"
came to mind. Of course, I knew that thought was nonsense, because quite a few lovely people had already let me know they missed me.
But when your feelings sink into a depressive hole, all your knowledge is of no use.
So I took a quick look in Discord to see what I might have missed. And just at that moment - by chance - a message from Shadows popped up in the dreemport channel:
" Okay everyone it's time to start PYPT "
Me: "Hm, what, it's already Thursday? What happened to Tuesday and Wednesday this week?" I was about to turn my back on discord again, but something stopped me and after some hesitation I joined the voice channel.
And what can I say, I am so glad I joined. It was such a treat to listen to Shadows, to see Kitty and Dreemie chatting, to just listen to Bluefinnstudios talk about his beloved garden and plans.
Through a post by raj808 https://ecency.com/hive-158694/@raj808/atuman-spirit-of-the-sunset-poetry-and-digital-art I became aware of an interesting tool that allows you to virtually edit your images. The https://deepdreamgenerator.com/ aroused my interest.
Last but not least the ladies even managed to get me on voice, which is clear for everyone who knows me: "No easy task!" ;-)
I also became aware of this non fictional prompt of the inkwell community and the dreemport challenge through the PYPT. And of course, this week's prompt fit perfectly with my current situation:
The Ink Well Creative Nonfiction Writing Prompt #12: In Search of SELF.
And suddenly it came back, this desire to write something, to post something on hive and to be active again.
Now, of course, I've been thinking about how Shadows managed to drag me out of my hole (Without even knowing). The answer is amazingly simple:
Of course I have good friends and family, they all want to help and just as naturally they shower me with advice. "Have you tried this.... " "Why don't you try this..." and so on, you've probably heard a lot of those phrases before.
Well, what came as a Discord message? Plain and simple.
"Okay everyone it's time to start PYPT"
Not - we are starting now, come on over. Not - don't you want to be a part of it? Especially not - you could try to be part of it!
Our language is so powerful, we often underestimate it and I realize more and more that I have to pay more attention to how I formulate something again.
And so the Dreemers, without knowing it, managed to lure me a step far out of my hole to see the light and the surroundings again. Very nice match to this topic is this AI Photo, which I generated with the prompt "loose and find yourself" on deep dream generator:
Of course, in this short time, only a few hours, I have not completely and totally found myself. Rather, I am convinced that this whole stupid illness actually has only one goal, to bring me back more to my real self and to the life of my dreams, from which I have strayed very far the last few years.
But it feels like my dear online friends have dragged me out of the hole and here, from the top of this hole, everything looks very different again. Full of possibilities and options to choose quite easily and very simple, piece by piece and step by step - further on the search for my true self.
Many thanks and Love to Shadows, Kitty, Dreemy and all the other participants of the PYPT :-)
photo generated by me with https://deepdreamgenerator.com/
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I am so happy that you found the good energy that you needed to return to us! 😘
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It is great to see you again, I know when we are not well we need some time to rest and recuperate. !ALIVE
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I always believe that nothing in this world is a coincidence. I look for a sign in everything that happens in my life, and if I can't get what I want, then I think that there is something good for me. We are always being sent signs and we don't always understand them. You were also sent such a sign and you were able to receive this sign correctly. Congratulations and I hope you don't get sick again))
It’s good to feel that you’re finally recovering from a drawn out illness especially when you are able to thank people you love for their motivation. Nice tribute to Dreemers and the Discord community.
Thank you, I wasnt sooo sure if this really meets the requirements for a non fictional story, but it simply wanted to be written down :-)
Sometimes we lose ourselves only to find the better version of ourselves.
Hm, but we are always the best, we can just be in each single moment !ALIVE
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Nice having you back and hearing from you my dear friend.
I pray for sound health and quick recovery.
Do take care.
With love ❤️
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Sometimes we only need time and rest. I am happy to see you active again. You were missed a lot!! You shine!! ❤️
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Glad to see you up and about my fellow night owl!
Now back to business and Happy New Year😁
Na, will take a little time to be fully back on track, but I am on my way
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Yes slowly slowly is the way to do it!
Danke :)
Ahhh. My dear. I relate a lot with this. Depression mostly stems from not being productive enough. Our mind keeps telling us that we are lacking and hounds us with guilt. I have missed so many days of the week because I am not really paying attention. It is comforting to find that someone else feels or has experienced from my point of view.
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Besser ja, aber fit fühlt sich anders an, keine Ahnung was der Schmarrn soll. ;-) An mir kanns nicht liegen, denn es geht der halben Family sehr ähnlich. Jetzt sinds schon fast 3 Wochen, das ist echt doof.
Hoffe aber ihr hattet eine schöne Zeit in Tirol und wo auch sonst ihr überall wart !LUV
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I hope feel much better soon @beeber!
Great write-up! I wish I was so involved with stuff! I am trying to get more active again!