The Move Part 11: A Father's Guilt

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This is my little series on the big move back to Australia. Perhaps I will look back in the future and laugh... or cry!
Part 1: Finding a Moving Company
Past 2: A Slight Travel Panic
Part 3: Comparing Crypto Tax Accounting platforms (Cointracking vs Rotki)
Part 4: A Week in Involuntary Stasis
Part 5: The Last Harvest
Part 6: Letting Go...
Part 7: Putting the name out there!
Part 8: Prohibited Materials:
Part 9: Liquidity Freeze!
Part 10: NOOOOO, Steam Deck Delay!


So plans are starting to fall in place for the big move. We have a clear cut off date, the house is sold, the garage is sold, the flights are locked in (hopefully...), Australia has given up on the mandatory quarantine for incoming travellers, jobs are being locked in on the other side... well, things seem to be moving smoothly.

We are starting to count down the time with weeks now... and very soon, that will start to transition to days. However, up until the very end, our lives are still similar to before. Travelling for music, teaching, school and everything all goes on as per normal. One of my greatest fears is that one of us will get sick right as we are supposed to board the plane... and that we will have to delay. On the other hand, as long as everything stays healthy afterwards... delay is fine. The important thing is to arrive in good shape... a few more days later is no problem.

So, as I have mentioned before, this was a secret plan that my wife and I had been working on for quite some time. However, we only just told the kids this last Easter. At that time, December was a very long time away... and the concept of moving was such a nebulous idea for them both (and us as well!). However, as the time gets closer... I think it is starting to get a little bit harder for the older girl.

Of course, she will love being around her newly rediscovered extended family... with too many aunts, uncles and cousins to keep track of. But she will miss her friends and the life that she has built up here.

... and of course, I can't help but to feel some guilt in being directly responsible for this moment of pain and loss.

My wife and I never moved around as children, so we don't have that direct understanding of what she is going through. My nearest experience as a child was that my best friend in grades 1-3 was a girl that had English parents who were visiting my father's university. Of course, when that finished, they returned back... and I remember being quite distraught. That said, it passed and it isn't something that I think much about these days!

My older child is slightly older than me at that time, and she is leaving behind a few really tight friends. Every time that I see them together, it breaks my heart that we are essentially just wrenching them apart. Of course, they will try and stay in contact, but it is inevitable that these bonds will decay over time... as each finds new connections to make on different sides of the planet. Maybe their bonds will be the rare case where their do reconnect after many years...

I remember leaving my childhood city when I finished school and moving to the other side of Australia to study at University. I was the only one who left... and for some reason, that didn't bother me too much. I still stayed in contact with some of my closest friends... but each time I moved after that, I retained very little connection with my past. I find the concept of farewells to be quite awkward and disconcerting for me... I prefer to just disappear in a puff of smoke (my wife is similar, but less bad at it...). However, I know that that is sometimes perceived to be quite rude from the other side...

So, in these closing days of our European adventure... we are doing our best to challenge our instincts and to have proper ends to our closest bonds here. And we are trying to make sure that our children are able to have the best closing weeks with their friends... even though it is a bittersweet experience to see them together playing and just doing whatever it is that pre-teen girls do. So... more sleepovers and afternoons than we would ordinarily have... but it is something that is really quite important... for them, and for me to assuage my own guilt.

I know that they will be fine in the end... and there was no guarantee that these basisschool (primary) friendships would have lasted through to highschool and university... however, like many things, you feel the guilt of things that you actively choose to do... and not the guilt of indirect actions.

I know that our girls will get through it... and I'm trying to encourage them to think of things as "different" rather than to focus on things that are better or worse, gained and lost. I know it will hurt for the older one for a little while, but I hope she will make it out the other end stronger.... and that she will forgive her parents for their choice to return back to the extended family. After all, despite our best efforts... we love Netherlands and Europe, but it isn't our real home... and over time, we have started to feel that more and more as our families have grown older. We feel the loss of time... and that can't be replaced.

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When did mandatory quarantine go away? We haven’t looked for flights back yet just cause we didn’t want to deal with quarantine.

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November for NSW, the international flights are back on. They have given up on zero-covid, and so the mandatory hotel quarantine doesn't make sense anymore. Check up the exact details, different states might have different rules, and also whether you are vaccinated or not.

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Unlike many people I find here on hive… I am soooo vaccinated. 😄

Well this is very exciting.

I saw Canberra is like 96% vaccinated. Yay ACT. 🎉

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Ha... crypto is a strange place! I'm hoping that this new development isn't going to screw us though...

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I immediately thought of you when I saw borders closing to places again. I also saw a news article about the ACT requiring quarantine for international travelers now. But it varied from 3-14 days depending on where you’ve come from. Which is of course confusing since no international flights arrive in Canberra.

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It's the Canberra International Airport! Well... I think it is technically just passengers bouncing from international to domestic flights... Or private/diplomatic planes. I haven't got one of those yet... It is on my wish list that I'm sending to Santa.

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