The Deliberate Choice to Remain Happy.

I woke up this morning feeling not really great about certain things I have to do, and I haven’t been able to do, but this is not to say I have been lazy because in reality, I have been giving in my best as much as I can.
My people would say, when the challenges of life are dealing with you, you appear unwise before humans. Logically thinking about that statement now, you will realize that, nothing you do really makes sense to people except you have a proof for your knowledge which is usually money or financial access. Regardless of how much we try to argue about this, it is a very true reality.

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After depositing my laptop for weeks with the repairer promising him to come pick it up after sometime, he has fixed it, but the system has remained in his office as a result of inadequate funds to go pick it up. Trying to use a friend’s own to quickly make content whenever he chooses to rest, so I can return it back and get to use it again the next time it’s available, is a struggle I’ve had to keep up with. You know what they say, about challenges of life actually bigger than the entire income you make, I think I am truly at that stage right now.

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However, regardless of the struggle, the fights and all that I need to put in, the goal is never to stop or relent.
I started having a type of sudden shock recently, it started lightly until it began to get intense, it was said that intense stress and worry is the result of the pain felt. Hearing this, I made a sound decision to make myself happy regardless of what happens, since it is not in my ability to stop it or make it go away, why get sick over it, I constantly say to myself.

So I stand in front of a mirror, I look at my self, I smile at my self, I jump and dance whenever I can and other times, I speak affirmatively to the pretty girl I see in the mirror, reminding her that everything will work out just fine, telling her that she’s got a bright future ahead of her and that, she is helped by the most high.
So, I hope that my story encourages you and gives you the strength you need to keep pushing, keep fighting, keep trying, I am sure that this phase will soon pass and everything will surely make sense.