Accepting Yourself For Who You Are

It is perhaps the misfortune of my life that I am interested in far too much but not decisively in any one thing; all my interests are not subordinated in one but stand on an equal footing.
Soren Kierkegaard

We are who we are and there's certainly no running from ourselves although we can try but would and certainly we would find ourselves on the standing point of what we were running from.
Growing up is the best thing that could happen to anyone because of each passing step that one encounters and start picking up on their dislikes and likes, while many at times misinterpreting each findings only to circle back.

My life has been so much fun that it took a while to embrace myself for who I am.
This is actually who I was because when I decided not doing certain things, subconsciously I wanted to do it and inadvertently found myself doing it, so why the whole struggle?

Every step of the way, adulthood is so much than we ever expected because well I younger it seemed so much easier and having so many interest that in the future it would have to be narrowed down to one or two.
Yet, my interest are still numerous because I have no special skill just the fact that I am who I am and narrowed it down to my interests which gives so much satisfaction. The thought of being an adult has been dreamed of a long time ago and it felt it would be easy but it actually is easy but the concentration is just so overwhelming.

The journey to this point was made possible by each experience and learning which one just had to stick to their true nature.
Imagine living a life that at each point one has to say, had it been I know.
One just can't be too conscious living life but one has to be intentional.

Yesterday, I read a post by @nonameslefttouse and that brought a lot into my mind.
Understanding and loving yourself at a level that doesn't affect your state of
mind because you are already what you want to be.
Everyone is finding their way through life then try to put into mind the wrong conception into another by pulling them down into a shit hole.
I'd just have to do as Soren Kierkegaard says all my interests are not subordinated in one but stand on an equal footing.

The great victory in life is actually against oneself, winning the battle against self is winning the battle against life itself.
Victory won against self is victory won against life.

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Living is never ending till the very end so the continuous strive to be whole in life is inevitable which makes living more interesting.
Can we get to that point of achieving Nirvana?
The simple truth is yes but first accepting oneself for who we truly are and actually not giving to what the world says.
Being impermissible to chitchats and staying true.
The funny thing is that we are being envied for staying true to ourselves, you don't need to be told but when you've gone through a lot that you've not been expected to come out on top and remain yourself, the revelation would come one way or another.

Life is simply what we make it to be. We are the center of the world, if you are happy the world is happy, if you are sad, the world is sad.
The outer world is only a reflection of our inner world, I can't remember who actually said this but I choose to be myself in all ramifications whether you understand or not but truly it's not about you but all about me.
I never intended to say anything explicit about myself but I think I'd have to say this.

I remember when I started keeping my beards (sure not what you wanted to hear, right?). There was too much noise and all were negative not even one word that drew the positive side to it.
It would be anyone that kept beards was perceived as a killer, ritualist, or would be molested by the police. Truth is that I knew all this but since I was a kid, I've always wanted beards and I actually prayed for this and now, it seemed my prayers were finally answered then right now all this.
I'm grateful for my brother who I learnt from to not give a fuck about what people said so I didn't actually give in to the negative talks, I actually know who I am and made my mind so rigid.

I was still young and needed assistance from my parents and my eldest sibling, so they always got me when I came home for holidays and because I needed their assistance, I always had to scratch their back so that they would scratch my back which always worked.
There was this particular time, I came back home and the distraction was too much that I went to the barbing salon and told my barber to shave it all, he thought I was joking but eventually took it down but this time I needed a clean shave.
I went back home and no one even noticed I had shaved till two days later when I was asked what happened? Why did you shave all your beards?
No one cared, no one actually gave a damn about what I did.
That was only the beginning of me embracing myself, my beards some six years ago.

We end up carrying out actions that only us suffer the consequences for our actions so why not go ahead and just do what is best for you?
Truth is that we owe ourselves every good that life has to offer us without thinking too much.
Take yourself seriously while on the way up the hill to being the best version of ourselves.
We experience victory and defeat all alone, so it is best they come by our own bidding.

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