The Birthday Party of the Weekend

Questions upon questions that could be asked and left unanswered. The truth remains that there are elements or would I say virtues that allows all to come through alas.
They hold through when we stay true to ourselves.
Personally, I love the journey through life that remains uncertain.
Uncertainty means we are living.
No, don't get me all wrong, certainty is good but uncertainty is better.
You see that adrenaline rush down our veins, the heart beating fast, the uncertainty that words would have no effect.
That's what would lead through.

Virtues like Patience, Consistency and the leader of all, Desire.

I bet you on this without desire nothing falls through even though they all occur occur indirectly or unexpectedly, I bet you again my mind has gone some other place.

Yeah, Chimamanda Duru's birthday was yesterday and what a Uncle I am.
I just deleted WhatsApp yesterday(whispers in the ear) actually I really don't care what anyone thinks.

Let's just remain in this space because no one cares about you except those who care you which is you.

Let's get back to it. I tend to take anyone regardless of who they are.
I'd just prefer refer ring the person that no one should figure out even thyself.
That's alright now.

THE BEGINNING
Virtues like Patience, Consistency and the leader of all Desire.
Desire from the willingness to hold through no matter what, there's always the burning desire in everyone even though one can't pinpoint what it is.

Have you ever eaten to your satisfaction but at the end, the desire to eat something, that thing that one doesn't know, the feeling of not knowing but knowing that there's something more that is needed.

A burning desire to be the best version of self, a burning desire to achieve what doesn't seem through even though to self...
Taking myself as a yardstick, I've always had a burning desire for cars, bikes - just the sight of one, triggers what I don't even understand.

I try to control my feelings but absolutely, the feeling just ends up becoming greater than me.
Truth is I can't even control it.

I'm about making it all about me and initially it ought to be about me then it became about Chimamanda, but right now I have to make it all about me, lol.

From birth up to this moment, it has always been cars and now at this point of life, I just see fear - afraid of the unknown.
I just have no option than to walk through life with this ever burning desire.

AS mentioned, the desire to want pushes us to want more even at points we can't even achieve them.
That's why being patient is good while being consistent would win all8 thought.
I had the intention of juxtaposing patience and consistency but right now it dawned on me that they are both intertwined.

INTERMISSION
There's nothing more I'd want for Chimamanda to do far better than me even though my life is just beginning.

Hahahahaha, the family is larger than you think, don't even think about it.
There's Esther and Emmanuel.

Oh, I didn't mention my sweetest hearts Janet and Helen.
They'd definitely kill me but there's nothing for Uncle to do than get angry and later apologize to them to come play with him (what a cycle, phew).

OKAY
When something is to be achieved, being patient without putting in the work never gives a result.
There must be a work that allows one to be patient of the outcome.
I'm just concluding college and I find myself seating down penning my thoughts.

I spent eight years instead of five years, I'd just say its been quite an experience to find out what's out there, the different stages of maturity is just one experience on your own so that the path through life would be known by self.
There had never been a much more better time than today, if yesterday is brought to mind.

Sadly, yesterday is the past and tomorrow remains unguaranteed so today would be the better time to start on the way.
Then the question pops up, when would the vision / dream become reality?
The key is to keep walking the path and improvising all the way while being flexible.
What is certain is the way all is planned, they don't usually happen the expected way rather they turn out to happen their own way that would coincide with plans already laid down.

Right years of failure, I guess I expect failure to happen. The thing is I never knew myself.
The first five years in college taught me lots of valuable lessons and the remaining three years were quite easier to pass through.
And here they are, the new generation with Esther taking the crown.
Truth is the crown carries responsibility especially while being the Queen.

To note, I have never failed in my life, I never knew what failure was until I was all alone in the university.

Living through the most difficulty experiences, aside from failing which was new and I couldn't stand the shame of it, it just kept on happening until I acknowledged it.
I made may own way doing what works for me.
The certainty that you'd be there for yourself because actually, people who see one going through difficulties but can't truly comprehend what's being felt.

I had to be patient and consistent for three years to get the desired result.

During the earlier years, I finished with a third class but with the extra two years that became three years because of the covid-19 pandemic, u was able to finish with a second class lierr.
Truth is I'm proud of myself, what I've become, how I got to become who I am.
It was all made done with persistence and consistency.

I wasn't in town with them.

I'm currently in Enugu and they are in Lagos