Singing In The Dark: Finding Hope In The Songs Of Scriptures
Far too often, life's challenges and struggles cause people to question and fight feelings of doubt and despair.
They go about searching endlessly for hope but then, through their search for hope, most people find it in the places they never thought they would, they find this hope in the songs of scriptures.
Although it may seem difficult to believe in those words/lyrics especially when we are at our darkest days but then, just letting ourselves enjoy the lyrics, letting ourselves bask at the moment even when we've got questions, challenges, and doubts in the lyrics/words can give us so much hope we never thought was deep down in the corner of our heart just looking and waiting for the right moment to manifest itself.
For the past months now, my mom has been critically ill at a point, I was giving up and getting tired of catering to her, although it may seem not a nice word to us but I was at my darkest days, my finances were all gone and I was getting into a lot and lot of debt that I was trying to avoid causing depression and a lot of thinking and anxiety.
Maybe I was giving up too soon, maybe I was beginning to wonder why God was letting this happen to me but all the same, I had a lot of questions and was beginning to doubt God which caused me from staying back from church services with no good reason.
I wished I could talk to someone but my introverted part of me wouldn't want to because she feels she doesn't want to become anybody's burden, she doesn't want to add up to other people's worries and so, she did what she knew how to do best, she withdrew.
I wished I had someone's lap to cry on, wished I had someone I could pour out my heart to without feeling I am been judged or being judged.
I wished I had someone to tell me "Just rest everything is going to be okay", wished I had someone to give me a tight hug and perhaps a loving cuddle at those moments but unfortunately, wishes are not horses.
One of these days, I decided to attend all-night church rehearsals, and one of the songs our director taught us was titled: God Turned It Around by Tim Godfrey ft Nathaniel Bassey and Tim Bowman, Jr.
The song didn't actually make a lot of meaning at first but downloading the song and going back home to listen to the song and lyrics over and over again made so much sense to me at that point. Then I realized perhaps even amid this chaos, I could let God do His thing his way, it gave me hope to keep on believing that everything would be okay even if it takes longer than expected.
The second song of Scripture that warmed my heart is a hymnary that I have grown to love over the years, I think I can remember the first time I heard this hymn sang, it broke my heart and I realized that it is one of the underrated hymns we don't get to sing often in our churches but every word convey a lot.
Scrolling through YouTube, I once again, came across the hymn sung by this beautiful lady Shirley Wills although a little bit different from what I usually hear people sing and the lyrics got to me much more than I had expected it.
It was written by Johnson Oatman: O How He Loves Me
It's a soul-lifting song that reminded me that when I tend to focus on my problem instead of trusting God, I was going to end up exhausted which actually I already was, and defeated because God didn't design me to fight my battles alone and that's because He knows I don't have the power to face every problem in my own strength, I need God's power and strength.
He walks with me along life’s road,
Oh, how he loves me;
He carries every heavy load,
Oh, how he loves me;
This too was taught in our all-night rehearsals and listening to this song has blessed me a lot.
All things are Possible: Rev Sam Oye ft Mercy Chinwo and Transformers Worship Team
And since that day, these three songs have been on repeat on my playlist. So whenever, I feel I am shrinking back into my dark corner, I just get my phone and let these songs play reminding me once again of God's abundance in my life despite the huddles I am faced with.
Life is full of experiences that want to test us, drain us, and would want to wipe us out, so instead of caving in during this overwhelming pressure, we should learn to stand strong and that standing strong most times could mean finding hope in the songs of scriptures, it helps one realize that we can not handle the situation on our own.
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