The Unlikely Feelings

I don't know where to start from who to tell this feeling but all I know is that it's real. I don't know if having such a feeling is right but I guess our body and mind work on their own accord on some issues no matter how hard we try to let them do or act according to how we wish to portray ourselves.

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I mean, I am a church girl with fire for Christ, I am the type of girl who loves to keep her relationship discreet and believe in abstinence until marriage but recently, I noticed there is this particular guy in our choir that I find myself admiring, every day I come across him. I find myself stealing glances at him and watching every step he takes.

Many times we would hold eye contact with each other and at the end smile and pretend as nothing happened, or like we just communicated what only both of us understand with our eyes.

Although he is my friend and I know he's got a girlfriend which is one thing that wouldn't want me to let him know how I feel for him, I mean I am one person who is against double dating, so I can't see myself having a romantic entanglement with someone who has got a girlfriend already.

The funny part is he is my kind of guy, the kind of guy I love to be with but I just don't think having feelings for him is the right thing.

I find myself thinking about his lips, his smile, whenever he passes, his scents drift to my nose and I can not help but imagine images, I dread to think about. I don't know if it is love or lust but all I know is I want to spend time with him and watch his hands and mouth do all kinds of things on my body.

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My though are becoming dirty each passing day and I don't know why I am having this feeling. Could it be as a result of my reading and watching too many romantic movies and books or could it be just my body responding to hormones?

I wouldn't know why I am suddenly having such feelings for him, I just wish it will vanish because I am becoming scared of what I will do when I am alone with him.

It is frustrating because I can't get this feeling out of my veins, I hate being a second option to anyone.

I need advice, has anyone felt this way for someone they are not dating, and what are the solutions to stop this feeling?