Lessons that a relationship with a toxic guy taught me.
Apart, the person i trusted just betrayed me like i wasn't the one with whom he used to be this much sweet. The change in behaviour of the person you loved the most matters. The things which i have to face while crossing from that particular person just hurts me a lot. The way he crosses and insults me isn't the thing which i expected long time back. Actually i don't think that the first impression matters the most because the person you is sweet enough to you can hurt you at only point of time.
Being confident enough isn't the particular solution for being strong from deep inside your heart. The hurt which has one filled in your heart can not be forgiven or forgotten there is something deep inside your heart which suddenly make you remember each and every single moment either it's good or bad or worst. I always expected that this person is the one who is good for me but density completely changed the whole scenario.
The main problem is that you can't live upto yourself or by all alone, there is someone who will always disturbing you or interrupting in your life. If you will start living alone that person will definitely come and disrupt your life and your mental status and this will damage your confidence, your peace and your happiness. The one who just came in my life to teach me a lesson won't let me go this way. That person will be damaging me health and mental status no matter how strong i show myself.
The pain deep inside my heart is just abnormal for everyone or that casual all the people persent over. I just share all this by writing it and posting but sometimes it's not the solution until you blame yourself, hurt yourself or cry. Sometimes some people don't feel like living and just give away their beautiful lives. The best way to hurt a person is to attack but how? The most simple one is you can just kill a person but it is not the solution, for killing anyone you just need to break anyone's trust and just leave them alone and that's it that's the day when they will be called as a dead alive.
The confidence that i carry about myself and about my personality is just broken into pieces but that person or anyone. Sometimes i littery feel like giving up on myself but still i try to stand all by myself and there is no other option left. I can't blame anyone for hurting me because the simple answer is that you gave us this opportunity that's not our fault at all. His lessons will remain in my heart until my last breath.
Usually the starting of a relationship sharts with blushing and smiling but when it ends all those sweet words turn to that deadly revenge. Many of the ending are casual but mine us the worst. When you think you found someone at the some point of time universe teaches you the best lesson that why not to think that kind of thought again. The way he broked my trust into small pieces can not be joined again for anyone else, for sure.
His lessons where the one's which can be forgotten in just a case of memory lost otherwise whenever he will come infornt of me those works and those quite scratches on heart will be there in my mind forever and ever. I can't just say a simple sentence infront of that toixc guy that i moved on because move on really means that you found someone but in reality i just lost myself in search of finding that piece of dumb shit. I just can't trust anyone the way i did it for the last time in the period of my life.
The world will never stop asking the same thing again and again and that's those common words that What Happened? I just hate these words when anyone asks me this shit. They feel like enjoying the moment and try to heel you with those fake expressions. I never ask these kinds of questions or answer them. I cannot just talk about one single guy dude everyone is behind me thinking that this person will tolerate so you can say anything but I can't ignore all the time but i need to because i just need to hold on.
I just think that my best revenge could be my success and i need to pay attention only towards it. I can't fight all time all alone so i just need to be silent for a while and then achieve something and they reply to all these dudes. I being a girl can't be any violence act of so because never make a decision when you are angry or happy this can ruin your life and your mental health.
Mostly i never felt that my parents are with me. They also don't have any interest in my life and in my thoughts so i just don't want to talk any such things to them because i think that they will only blame me and that's the only way they answer can be given to me. I think that no one is with me the only one who can be with me is I and myself. My parents and everyone finds fault in me.
The reflection which i see of myself i totally worst and i don't think that i am suitable for setting with anyone after all those things which everyone did with me. I can just simply patt myself and cool down but it's not the way how life is. The only solution to any particular problem is me and that's the answer.