6/25/22

Spent the past thirty-six hours or so just feeling absolutely miserable. Just a reminder I am still kinda depressed. But I don't know, I'm just moving forward. I somehow got through work today. Every cell in my body wanted to be anywhere but there. I just am so mad at myself a lot. Feels like I'm headed to nowhereville in life sometimes. Just working my shitty job, not able to see my son as much as I did before. I swear it's like I've lived several lives and now, I'm just like at the end of it. Not even in a truly dark way, just a sort of lame, pitiful way. So many things just come and go.

I just have felt like a legit zombie. I have little to zero idea what my future holds. In a way I guess it's kinda sorta exciting, but it's remarkably terrifying and weird too.

I just need to get through the next two days. Then I'm off on Monday and Tuesday THANKFULLY. I don't remember the last time I've been off for two days straight. It's not been all that long, but it's been awhile.

I think I really want to read some of my old books. And write here. I wanna be healthy, and I want to learn another language or two. See the world. Delusions man LOL. Not delusions, but I guess my heads in the clouds, focused too much on irrelevant things, at least for now I guess.

Blah, these videos are cool.

This one has been on repeat. Addicting. Hope he releases it in full one day.

This is a fascinating video! Wild to hear the evolution of the language I speak and write in everyday.

Hive on folks.