It actually gave me peace of mind

I would say I have overcome it but on the other hand, I still don't fit in. I do call myself a misfit among my peers and I really love that name. It didn't actually start now, I experienced inferiority complex throughout my childhood days but then I didn't see it as anything until this happened in secondary school.

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I was an athlete during my school day compared to now and I can remember going to Interhouse sports and thrashing other schools during rally races, I won several medals for my junior school which I had to battle with a contestant from the school I ended up in for my senior education. I was so good at this sport thing that it made me famous in almost every school I attend except my new school.

After I joined the school, I noticed the school wasn't sport-oriented unlike the previous school I attended so I began to gain weight, it was a new school and also a new environment for me, there was no field in my new environment so all this helped me gain some weight and just because I look like a fat kid, other classmate or school mates wouldn't let me play football with them. I tried many times and there was this time it almost turned into a fight so I just gave up my sports dreams and just sat in my classroom during break or P.E. I know it feels like I'm accepting defeat but that's better than getting into a fight with other students.

They went for different various football competitions which they lost and I was happy because I could play better than some students representing my school, I was just always hoping I would be given the chance to go represent my school but didn't happen until we were going to be having the school Interhouse competition. I finally said to myself this is my chance to prove myself but I was just thinking I didn't know my housemaster got his plan. On the first day of practice, we all participated in all the events which I was good at high jump, running, badminton, March past and running. But when we were been shared, I was only given March past. I tried to talk to my house master that I'm better at other things which be saw at the training but he said he already had people fill up that spot.

Every time after school we stayed behind for self-practice and I kept winning the person who was going to represent my school in the high jump and race. I tried switching houses but I couldn't so I was stuck with just marching past, I know some few tricks that we could use during the match past that earned us our only medal on the inter-house sports day but despite that, we came out last in the competition losing other events woefully. When I got home that day I burnt my inter-house sports clothes and didn't participate in anything sports till I graduated secondary school.

The way I would say I overcome where I feel inferior is by accepting that inferior, but deep down in me, I know my capabilities but I'm not going to try to prove to anyone what I'm capable of doing and this also helped me from switching from being an extrovert to Introvert and to be honest, it's a peaceful life for me.



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I can relate to this because during my high school days, I was also a fat kid and that usually means I didn't get selected for most sport activities simply because of my weight and one thing I can say is that it hurts like hell whenever that happens but it's great to see that you were able to cope with it, just like I did back then too

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Just because one is fat doesn't mean you can't participate in sport, badminton is there but they just stereotypes fat people anyhow, I'm sorry you had to experience that too and I glad you didn't let it ruin you ..... Thanks for stopping

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I think the sport master recognise you and if I had someone who could do better than what I have, there shouldn't be a big deal in putting up with the team.

Peace of mind truly matters and you did well in handling the situation. Knowing fully well that you can do it is enough to make you not feel inferiority complex.

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Probably he might recognise me as the guy that trashed their school then, it was just about favorism and I wasn't theirs. Absolutely just because I couldn't fit in saved me from aot of trouble because i just be in my own space
Thanks for stopping by

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It's so painful when people are preventing you to show your potentials. Some people are like that, they'll always want to kill your dream, but if they prevent you from joining them, you can actually look for a place where you can join them for sport, this will revive back your love for sport, that's if you really want to.

It's nice reading from you.

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you are actually right though, now I'm a spectator of every sport, because I love watching it and cause I can't participate doesn't reduce I have for it

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