Emotions: The Trauma I faced

Hello Hivians

So , today was really hectic. I had gone to the market to get some materials for sewing,I came back and I was so tired.

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I had to rest a little while,I'm grateful I can even go to the market and walk for a long time. I was used to all of the stress, when I lived with a cousin.
It was always work from morning till night and none of those efforts seemed to be appreciated; I was always scolded and she always made me feel like nothing good was ever going to come out of me. But I still stayed throughout all of the emotional abuse. There's a reason I wrote that I'm grateful I can walk long distances now.

You see, there was a time I couldn't do that,why?
I was seriously ill, I had gotten admission to study Communication arts in the university, but two weeks after resumption,I fell sick. Everyone thought it was just normal malaria, but my illness got worse everyday. I stopped eating,I could only take water,my tongue was completely white,my body temperature was something else,it might have boiled an egg, I stooled frequently but I wasn't eating anything. I was in so much pain.

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After one of the doctors in the hospital diagnosed me with appendicitis. I was taken for a scan,by this time I had spent about one and a half weeks at the hospital. When the scan results came out it was confirmed that my appendix was inflamed and I was almost having glomerulonephritis ,I was going to be operated on,by this time I couldn't walk or talk,I was just there,the pain wouldn't even let me smile,it was so much I'd even wished I'll be given a little relief even if I couldn't walk,my mom went through a lot for me. After my surgery was performed,I was relieved of all the pain I felt. The only difference was that I couldn't walk properly,I had to learn all over again,my friends and family visited,the church members prayed and visited as well, I was discharged a week after my surgery.

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When I got home, depression set in. I was sad that I couldn't go to school for that year, my mates had gone far with lectures,I had to defer my admission to the next year,it was really hard for me to come in terms with that, everyone said I was gonna be alright, but then I knew they never really understood how I felt.

Some months later,we had this new neighbors, she came in with her daughter,her name is Ani and her daughter's is Free gift. Ani is such a nice lady I look up to, she has been through a lot, and I can relate, our lives are similar and since she's older,I draw inspiration from the fact that she went through all of these and she's still strong, it's not over yet, but she carries on with life like nothing is going on. Ani has been a sweet, wonderful, sacrificial,honest, and Godly person.

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She's a lady who acknowledges God in all her affairs, it's hard to find women like her, she puts others in mind before herself and has been hurt a lot of times, this happens to me a lot too, she's been through surgery as well, this was when she needed to give birth, it's been five years since that time and the pains are still there, I never knew she had a surgery, she never complained, never showed the pain,I noticed how she usually walked, almost bending over, I'd asked if she had waist pain, that's when she told me what was happening. I cried so much because she's a good person and had no one to help, she got separated recently and her only daughter was taken away from her, despite all of these she chooses to smile, she's such a source of blessing in the neighborhood, it's surprising how she still helps when she doesn't have much, she still loves the ones who have hurt her, she still respects them, she has so much love in her heart that even the hate and hurt and the pain can't subdue it.

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Stories from her childhood are so similar to mine,we had to thrive and not just survive in a loveless world,I'm not married yet,I want my marriage to be successful. It's a sad thing Ani's marriage was a shaky one, but this woman has chosen to live life.

I've learnt that life throws and will throw stuff at us, but we came to live life so backing out is not the answer, it's advisable to take a break , but backing out isn't the thing to do, like Ani I've learnt to put God first, that's where she draws out all the strength and love to go through life, I've learnt you can't go through life without God. I've learnt to move on and forget about the scars from my surgery,I've learnt to be a strong woman and I also want to inspire someone someday.

This is my story @darahclem. What about yours?