Not The Post I Planned For This Easter Sunday!

Hope you're ready for this one! I'll warn you ahead of time though as it is a "vent" post and a side of me that you've not seen before. Honestly, I feel like I've got nothin' much to lose at this point. I've shared quite a bit about my life on this platform as well as the last one and most people who know me know what I've been through the last few years. These last few years really were just more shit that I've been through and been subjected to most of my entire life. I've sometimes questioned God as to why but have come to believe that as hard as some things were and have been that most of these things made me stronger. Mind you, made me stronger after sometimes breaking me down. I have to be real careful with dealing with depression and health issues as well. So, while I get through it, it still comes at a cost. That being said, I will continue with my rant or vent which ain't gonna be colorful (unless you consider cussing to be colorful), silly, uplifting and, certainly, not the post that I had been excited about (that was silly and fun) posting today on Easter!

A couple of day ago I received a 100% downvote on a post I did. Not 10% or 50% but a 100% downvote on a post that a had a good upvote on. I was pretty upset as a couple of people on discord can account for. I thought it was a pretty good little post and it was meant to be a little something for average nature lovers that have been cooped up and maybe take their minds off of this fuckery that we are all dealing with right now. I'm not a professional photographer and never claimed to be. Just an average citizen who used these platforms as a way to stay in touch with the outside world as even with this pandemic, I really never get out much. But I digress! I'm pissed too cause you can sometimes tell a lot about a person by the company that he keeps. The upvotes and downvotes that are given and even the proxies on the accounts. Really makes me feel like this is a big circle jerk going on here. Conspiracy thinking? Maybe..maybe not, just thinking out loud and sharing!

So, from the bottom of my heart..FUCK YOU @likwid and FUCK YOU @transisto! You are the filth and disease that inhabits both of the platforms. Makes me wonder if a certain someone saw your bullshit going on and wasn't too keen on it so you brought your same disgusting practices over here. Funny that I don't see you downvoting some shit that really should be like spamming and plagarism. Maybe you do but from looking through several pages on Hiveblocks and the other one, I saw enough to question your motives. I'm sure a bunch of people will say see ya' @deerjay and that is up to you but maybe one of you will be next and feel differently.

I really love and care about some people on this platform and for those people (I think most know who you are) I want to say that with a very heavy heart, I don't know that I can or want to stay here anymore. If you want to say, but @deerjay, it was just one downvote then okay I get that but is it worth my mental and physical health. We all deal with "shit" a different way and honestly I'm just tired of this kind of bullshit from assholes. If you feel like I'm running away from the bullies then think what you will. I don't have much to fight back with on here and let me put it like this ... if you're playing poker and you feel like you're playing with a stacked deck do you keep playing?! Maybe sometimes, it is just best to fold your hand and walk away. May I never meet you on my terms though as it would go much differently. You are nothing but bullies and I hate bullies with a passion.

Something I haven't told many people about is my first marriage which was to a psychopath. He only hit me once and the threats were many and often times with weapons. He was the brother of a psychopath and international fugitive that was within the last few years apprehended in Thailand so crazy ran in the family. So, I'm not afraid of you ASSHOLE. I'm afraid of the hate that you are making me feel and wish not to feel for my own well being. Friends can feel free to message me on discord if you want to know more about that fugitive. Except you @transisto...again FUCK YOU! I've only told a handful of people but I'm not sharing the name here for reasons of retaliation from a couple people in that family. Retaliation much like I expect on this post and future posts!

May most of you have a Happy and Blessed Easter!! 💞