BREATHE WITH THE "PAIN".
Not all things good are sweet. There are times that self-development and growth require a lot more than you can actually give. I should know.
I've been big on developing myself this year. Working towards breathing in a world bred for chaos. There is already enough confusion in the world, so why let yourself be consumed by turmoil?
We can't help it. The decisions we make, the steps we take and the things we say. We are made to learn from mistakes. To grow out of certain mindsets and into new ones.
I wrestled with a major decision of my life this year. Many actually but this one was the hardest. See, there are times we need to take a step back and let the universe do its thing. Healing is never easy, but so is living with guilt.
Many struggle with the pains of bad decisions. Decisions that hurts someone else in the process. We keep making promises to be more careful but who says the heart doesn't have a mind of its own? This is why I try not to make promises for I know the heart can be tricky even when the mind is clear.
Letting go of things that make us happy, that make us smile, that elevate us and bring us joy; letting go of those beautiful smiles, the laugh, the jokes, the fun. Letting someone go because your values keep being compromised when you stay with them and you love them deeply, but you're slowly loosing your worth as you remain with them.
Because it makes us happy doesn't necessarily mean it is good. Because we long for their eyes, their smile, their joy, their lips, hands, heart, their entire being...because this is what we want doesn't mean it is what we need. I should know.
I said it before, I've been big on growth. Self-development. Loving myself. And I love him! But I loose who I am, what I am working so hard to build the deeper I go. My principles, my values, what makes me, Me!
I am not above mistakes. I make them, learn from them and move on. But I have learned with this, I tend to stay on the ground for too long. Well, not this time.
Pain is there to help us grow but how long would we have to deal with it? Here is the news, it never stops! For with every lesson, comes a test. Usually the test before the lesson, but I saw this coming. We were so different yet the same. I wanted so much of it I decided to be who I am not; what I am not!
But pain comes beautifully, you know. An angel disguised as the devil. We wrestle with the ache in our chest, knowing that we have done the unforgiveable. Hurting someone. Yet, few years from now, after the wounds are seared close, we would look back and see how much of a beautiful decision we made. Even if we don't see it now, we know in our hearts that it is the right thing to do but for now, we breathe with the pain. Living every moment of it!
So sorry for the pain and what you must have passed through. I know it must have been so hard to get on. But you already did. And you just have to keep it going.
Many times life had to show us that it is multidimensional. A lovely atmosphere today might turn out cruel tomorrow. No one can tell.
We all have our pains flowing through the deepest part of our veins and marrow. But expressing them out would bring ease.
I am glad you were able to pour out your mind in here. Thanks so much for sharing.
And thank you for reading me and leaving such a beautiful comment. I am grateful❤️
So very true!!
You are an extraordinary writer!
I am sorry to read about the pain. It is a very hard pain to deal with and keep strong so you do not go back. Good on you for knowing better and treating yourself better!! Bravo!! for taking care of YOU!! and being YOU!!
Yes. It is not going to be easy, but me first! Thank you so much...hehehe
Wow that was a good write up.
My favorite part.
Thank you for reading ❤️😊
I have said it before and I will say it again, damn girl you can write!
And Eddiewodotodo puts the first smile on my face for the day. It never gets old buddy!
I had this similar feelings when I was in love with a Guy! Yes we both wanted the relationship to work but the more I try to work hard to make it better the more I lose myself in the process. Imagine how this would be if both of you are two different beings! What the heck! Who said relationship was so easy to maintain???
I commit my time and my entire strength in correcting, mending and putting efforts but I feel I am losing myself and I had to leave the relationship and guess what we aren't compatible and I have been myself and I have my utmost peace.
So I can literally relate with your article and it's all part of my growth and basically life sucks sometimes but guess what we move regardless that!
Oh my. I am so thankful for life and its experiences. And there is nothing better than choosing yourself. I love that you also did that. Thank you sister for your beautiful comment.
You know in life, one has to go through this pains , so so that you can having a stronger and better heart
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Thank you so much Sis. I appreciate it.
Oh, Deraaa. This was beautiful and painful to read. I know these lines very well. I'm glad that you had the strength and conviction to do what is good for you. I wish you love and light.
Thank you so much Amore! I appreciate it!
pain is part of growth, so long as it is pain with purpose
Thank you so much for your comment!
In the end we are answerable to God, love is something that we have to give every day and if one person or something makes us regret loving then it means it's time to let go of such a thing. People come and people go, when it's your time you come and when your time is over you have to go too.
True. Thank you for such beautiful comment 😊
You're welcome Dr fierce, hehe