One Teary Afternoon || Week 14 Edition 02

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Greetings guys, I hope you are all doing well. It's midweek and I hope your plans are all being fulfilled and on time. So this edition is about life views, an attempt to pin point one thing that happened to me and totally changed my mindset and how I view life in general.

To be sincere my life has been a journey with a series of activities that has shaped me to what I am today. I've been thinking all through the night about a particular occurrence that changed my total view of life in general. I've been one to take life as it comes with each occurrence shapeing a part of my life.

After a long thought, I decided to settle for one of the most important experience that shaped who I am today. It was a long time ago in 2014, when I had that experience. I'm naturally an extrovert with very deep trust issues. I was always on to keep things to myself no matter what happened.

This was when I was staying with my brother and our friend, as much as we stayed together they had very little to no knowledge about what I was struggling with. I was sad and depressed with a lot of things on my mind. It felt like a lot of things were against me and gradually, I slipped into an imaginary fight with the world. Everybody was a suspect as far as I was concerned.

I locked people out without letting them get a sniff of my true self, only showing them the part I thought they needed to see. And many times my brother and our friend would see me thinking and they'd ask what's on my mind, but all they'd get was "nothing, I'm fine". Even mom and dad would call to check on me and ask what's going on with me and all they'd get is the same "I'm fine", when clearly I wasn't.

All these were just me trying to be strong for myself and to show the world that I'm strong and can handle my stuff. I'd listen to other people share their own problems with me, and I'd try to offer succor but I just couldn't let my own out. At some point people started seeing me as a mysterious being, a chronic antisocial.

So one day when I was all alone, I decided to call mom and dad to check up on them. After the calls, I just sat on the balcony watching the road and trying to enjoy the breeze, when all of a sudden there was a swelling of emotions in me. It was as if I'd bottled up so much that it's gotten full and was pouring out in the form of tears. I started crying for reasons I couldn't really pinpoint.

I felt like I was on the cusp of emotional collapse with no one around me that I could pour it out to. I picked my phone to see who I can call, and share my mind with, but my lack of trust of peoples got the better of me and I decided to maintain status quo. After all the tears, it felt like a level of weight was taken off me.

So when my brother came back I decided to talk to them as they were the only ones I could remotely trust at that moment. And after everything, with the conversation with people who genuinely cared about me, that's when I realized that one can never navigate this life on his own strength alone. I learnt to trust and open up to people when the need arises.

That experience shaped my life today that I can easily open up to people and share my thoughts and ask for help when necessary. That has helped me a lot in my relationship with people.

Although I might not have a large group of friends, that experience has helped me create my own little group of confidantes who has actually helped take the weight off my shoulder when need arises and that has helped me be a better person through fellowship.

There's my story. If you want to join the prompt, you can find it on the hive learners platform and tell your own story.

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