MY BAD HABIT.

They say that your habits defines who you are, I still can't prove If this is true or not.

While growing up, I grew up with a bunch of adult who did everything to make me talk less, they believed that I talked too much they always quelled me for talking too much. Because of that, I became a quiet girl. I mean quiet to a fault.

This really made it difficult for me to socialize with the people around me, since I have been talked into being a quiet girl I gradually grew close to mute. I bottle up my emotion is such a harmful way and that made me to bear grudges since I don't speak out my mind when I'm being offended.

That is not the main problem the main problem is the fact that this turned me into being what everyone call a snob although I don't see it that way. Since I find it difficult to express myself I felt like there is no need talking to other people around when not necessary. I still find it difficult to overcome this particular habit. I never care about what people have to say I just live my life the way I want my life to be and most time this affect my relationship with people around me.

Deep inside of me I really want to let go of this habit, I want to be able to socialize with the people around me I want to be able to create a good relationship with everyone but it's just not working, it seem like the habit has come to stay and it eats me up most times, but what can I do about it, nothing seems to work. I've tried different methods, I tried forcing myself into social gatherings but I end up feeling left out. I've tried following some and trying my self to keel up with a conversation even when I feel it's really not necessarily but i end up at a dead end.

Now, this is a habit I picked up while being corrected by caring adults at a tender age but at this my current age it end up affecting me more than I benefit from it.But come to think to of it I wouldn't really say I am a snob let's just say I'm a kind of girl who doesn't get involved in what she thinks is not her business is that called being a snob, well I don't know all I know is that this attitude of being alone and talking less has really affected me more than I can express.

_{The image is mine from my personal gallery}