What have I done.

Looking into the open space...
My eyes were wide open but I could practically see nothing.
My ears were open too but no sound could pass through
I was physically there but I was lost at the same time... I kept on thinking and thinking... I kept on hoping and wishing... I kept on looking at nothing. I looked up, she was there stairing down at me.

"I already told you I don't know how it happened, I was just... I was just... Infact I can't explain ok? I can't"

She was just there looking at me, she didn't say a word. It's obvious everything I said doesn't make sense but, that is the truth.

"Why are you looking at me that way, don't you get the point, I don't know how it happened." I muttered obviously not making sense too.

I just kept thinking and trying to comprehend the whole scenario, how can I even explain this situation,I was supposed to make everyone proud then how did this happen.. I was supposed to be the good boy, the most loved. then, what is all these. I wish I can return the time to just few hours back maybe I could fix it, or maybe I wouldn't have even returned home

No! I would have returned but I would have waited just a little more, I would have spent an extra hour with George. Yes if I had spent an hour with George then I would not have met her at home and none of this would have happened.

Oh my God! Why am I always so stubborn and why do I successfully walk into a deep trap at all time. George was begging me to spend just an extra hour with him before coming into town, but I was too stubborn to listen.

If I had known

Now what should I do, how can I explain this to Mom. I can only imagine the amount of hurt that would be on her face as tears would run down from her eyes.
And Dad, Demn! how did I turn into such a disappointment 😢 within a twinkle of an eye.

Just few minutes ago I was the best child they have but now....

WHAT HAVE I DONE.

What happens to the main aim I returned home, would anyone still be interested in seeing my award? I'm sure it's useless now.. what did I get myself into.

"Much was really expected of you, but this was what you had to offer. " Her voice came again.

" Get off my head!!!" I screamed.

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"What is it son" it was my mum this time as she walked in

On the sight of her, she fell down with a loud shout as tears rushed down her eyes like as if someone turned on a tap and my dad ran in and for few seconds he was lost. When he finally regained him self he stammered.
"Dan... Dan.. What have you... What have you done"as he rushed to her as she laid in the pool of her own blood.

I wish I knew the answer to that question,I just wish. I was speechless, even if the words were there I was too weak to talk. I opened my mouth but nothing came out, I tried to raise a hand I couldn't either and that was when I realized that all over my face and body were wet.

"This is not the time to cry Dan.. what happened here." Came my dad's voice again.

" I... I.. I" on saying that I fell down because at this point it was too much for me to take, I can't believe I killed my sister not just any sister but my only sister, my twin sister,my favourite and she is lying lifelessly before and a while ago I was hallucinating about her ... Oh no! my life is over... What have I done

"I.. I shot her" I managed to say as I jumped up from my bed.

Wait... That was a dream? I asked no one in particular. I picked up my phone, it was 2am. I put a call across to her

"Hey my lovely twin" came her melodious sharp voice and I dropped the phone... Oh God!... Oh goodness ...my good... Wow!... Thank ... Thank goodness that was just a dream I silently muttered to my self.