The Beginning And The End Of Meditation And Me

Hello my dear friends.
In the past two daya, i have been watching a tv series that reminds me of such an important part of a daily habit i already left behind for quite some times. That important activity whi h is how important it is to practice meditation daily. In this post, i will share about my journey through meditation. The reason that i want to make this post is that i hope it might be able to inspire and reminding my other friends here in this platform to do meditation like how this tv series reminding me of that.

The Beginning Of Meditation And Me

Around 7 years ago, i struggled with quite a severe mental health problem. I might be struggling with it since way before but never noticed them. I think its something normal and i have never think myself as a special person because of that. As long as we’re alive, we will have a mental health problem one way or another. Its the same with physical sickness. I think that its a proof that we’re normal human and we’re alive.
I cant share deep down about my struggle yet but i tru to fight them with a lot of way. Sadly, i was always have problem with money so professional help is never the option. I always try to find a second and third free option for my problems because thats what i can do at the time. Luckily, i have few professional and good friends that helped guiding me. I am nog saying that they’re the one that cure me or helped me fix my problem but they’re surely help me a lot so i will not losing my focus and stay positive during those times. I have try some other methods, but one of the methods that i found working are meditation. Since then, i often do that. Make it a habit of mine especially when i feel that the hard time will come to visit me. That is so i can prepare my heart and my mind to face that hard times.

The Relationship Of Meditation and Me

Meditation is a medicine for our mind and heart but sure its not like a morphine, which have an immediate effect on our body. Meditation is a slow and hard work. Building our strong base one by one, so that it will be strong enough to face the problem later. There’re a lot of moments when i feel like giving up, when i feel like its not working, when i feel like its just wasting my time and effort. How glad that i have never given up through all of those raging negative emotion. Like i’ve said before, meditation is not like morphine. It will leave you wondering if what you’re doing is right because there will be almost no sign to tell when it works. That is why meditation for me need a lot if faith. You keep your faith on yourself and do it continuously again and again till it will eventually works.

The End Of Meditation And Me

There will never be the end of meditation and me. Eventhough i believe it like that, when life is good, sometimes i left them behind. It was also such a cliché human nature of me. My life was so good and i forgotten about it little by little. The last time that i did meditation was probably almost 2 years ago. It’s been that long. I do believe that there is no coincidental. Whatever i see, i hear, i feel, its all the message from universe for me. I had a hard time in the past two weeks. I’ve been fighting and struggling with myself. So, watching this beautiful tv series might be one of the sign from universe that maybe i leave meditation behind for so long. Maybe, i should start doing it again even when i feel high. I will surely start doing it again from now on, no matter how high and low, hopefully for forever.