Studies Made Me Go CRAZY

Who does not have problems in life? If there is even a small ant, there will be some problems in her life. The biggest problem in my life is my studies. Although people say that studying is the easiest thing to do, all you have to do is sit down and read the book and take an exam on it.

I don't hate studying. I read novels, sometimes in Urdu and sometimes in English and I enjoy reading them. I read syllabus books too, but only if study is for knowledge, here study only a tension; Sometimes the tension of going to the university, sometimes the tension of attendance, sometimes the tension of the paper, sometimes the tension of the teacher's scolding, sometimes the tension of the assignment, and sometimes the tension of the result... With so much tension, the child goes into depression, how could he study?

In Pakistan, it is said that four years, two of matriculation and two of intermediate are very difficult. If you pass that, then life is easy. Tell me where it is easy? We are still reading the books as we read them in primary schools, the same four-hour papers in which just write, write, write.

I never opened the book before the exams, maybe I'm a genius, I never needed to because I always pass exams with good grades, but if anyone hears how I passed till today, they will go crazy laughing

In the 4 years of hard studies, COVID saved me. I had given matric first-year papers and then COVID appeared, and we didn't had to give second-year papers of matric. When I entered intermediate due to COVID we had MCQ papers, I used to close my eyes and color the option of my choice and I was lucky that the answer could be correct and that's how I passed the two years of intermediate too.

Know what I think? That is I don't hate studying, I have become lazy after these four years, but what should I do now? Now I don't like to study... Above all, in this degree, I have seven books and I start to faint after looking at them. How would I read them all?

And what is the biggest problem in all these things? The artist in me always wakes up when I open my books... strange isn't it? Sometimes I start making doodles on my register and sometimes I change the pages of books into the shape of a flower. My heart is involved in everything except studies.

And now I have exams again after ten days and I still can't figure out where to start from? I can't write for more than ten minutes continuously. How can I write a four-hour paper?

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