Grateful for HIVE

It's not an easy topic to write about, but on days like these, I'm doubly glad that HIVE is there to share my feelings. Everyone probably knows those days when it seems like everything is going wrong, days when you feel overwhelmed by gloom and worries. Although I am not happy about it, it is important to recognize those moments and especially to keep looking for ways to deal with them. And sometimes that works, and sometimes it doesn't. And sometimes, even in the dark, you can still find a glimmer of hope and something to be proud of. A reason to be grateful.

Sad, Emotional And Depressed

Yesterday and today were those days for me. When I say that I felt sad, emotional, and depressed, I am expressing myself mildly. I worry about things that are completely irrelevant at the moment according to everyone around me, but to me they are genuine, and they throw me off balance. That balance has always been difficult for me to maintain, and when things like this come on top of it, I lose the overview and can no longer see it all. Things are going from bad to worse and I don't know how to deal with it. At those moments it seems like I get caught in a web of negativity, and it's damn hard to get out of it. Yesterday I couldn't do it, and today seemed to get even worse until I realized in a moment of clarity that I had to look for things that despite everything I can still be proud of, things that I can be grateful for. And then I hope that I can get myself together before the situation gets even worse.

Proud Of The Growth Of My Account

So in the hope of finding something positive, I tried to think of what has gone well lately. It may not even be worth mentioning to many, but for me, it was a small bright spot, I managed to regain some of my blogging inspiration last month. It's been a very long time since I blogged continuously for a week, but this week I managed to do it again. And I was more active last month than I think I was in the entire year before. That is a small positive point, in the hope of finding something more I looked in my dashboard and saw that this month my account has received a nice boost in HivePower. And despite the negative chaos in my head, that made me somewhat proud of myself. My HBD has also grown nicely, and that honestly makes me even happier. Even though I know a lot of it will soon be swallowed up by an inevitable bill. The mere fact that I don't have to worry about that bill because I have the HBD is a reassurance amid all my other concerns, relevant or otherwise.

Pyrography

Despite my gloom and unstable emotions today, I had to continue with the pyrography project I started yesterday. Working on a new pyrography piece, this time a landscape, even gave me a sense of satisfaction and distraction. However, I found it extremely difficult to fully concentrate on it. Anyway, I did it anyway and I am still satisfied with the result so far. This reminded me once again that even on dark days like this, my creativity can be an outlet.

Myla Struggling

One of the things that was difficult today was seeing Myla starting to struggle with the challenges that her advancing age brings. That reminds me that life is fleeting, and though I have to think about the other side. Enjoying every precious moment we have and not worrying about tomorrow was just not possible today. All I can do is hope that tomorrow will be a better day for both of us and that we have enough resilience to come out of this stronger.

Even On Dark Days There Are Bright Spots

Today was not a day that I would like to continue to remember, but despite that, it was still a day where I could see that even on such dark days there are still small bright spots to be found. No matter how small the bright spots are, I have to try to find them and remember them. It teaches me that even in the most difficult moments, there are always reasons to keep going. To be proud and grateful.

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