My Time Is Now. Period.
This Will Be The Best Year, Ever.
We're a week into year 2022 and this year started out pretty bad for me. Well, it actually started out the same way year 2021 ended. Me being sick. I don't have covid according to the negative test result I got, but I've been home for 2 weeks now. I'll be home over the weekend and go back to work on monday next week.
- If I am feeling well enough.
Here's the ting though, I'm not really sure that I want to be there anymore. At work. I truly love my job and I am very passionate about it. I work in a psychiatric ward and there's nothing that comes even close to the feeling I get by helping or treating a patient that goes from being depressed to happy. It obviously isn't as easy as it may sound, but it gives me true fulfillment and meaning in life.
I love my job, but I can't stand the work environment anymore due to bullying and horrendous attitude from some of my colleagues. - I don't like to go to work anymore because of the shitstorm at work and some of my colleagues are worse than some of the craziest patients I've ever treated. That says quite a lot.
That being said, I have my personal issues as well. I’m not really where I want to be in life and it gives me anxiety. I also happen to suffer from PTSD and depression, which is something I found out just recently. I knew about the depression but I was unaware of the PTSD.
There's a lot of different sayings out there. If you're not happy in life, change it. Whatever. You have probably heard dozens of them as well. And even though that might be true in many or even most cases, almost anything work in theory, right?
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I have a bunch of questions but just a handful of answers. I have started to doubt myself and my knowledge. Others have pushed me so hard to I feel broken inside. I am not even sure of who my friends are at work anymore. I don't know who to talk to- or even if I should talk with anyone at all. I feel like an outsider at work nowadays and I went from being loved and appreciated by everyone, to being the worst and most hated person ever. Well, that's basically what I feel at least.
So, long story short: My workplace sucks.
I Need Motivation Boosts
When life gives you lemons you are supposed to make lemonade, but when you no longer have energy to do that, you need to come up with something else to do. You need to move forward because life goes on no matter if you want or not. No matter if you are ready for it or not. Life goes on.
I also quite recently talked about the Swedish tax agency and how me trying to be a “good citizen” or whatever caused me some problems. The result of that is me paying taxes for all the crypto I have ever owned, which obviously put me down further in the hole. - But I am not giving up.
Instead of giving up, I've started to do things I really want to do. One of those things are sharing gaming content in the Hive gaming community. I have done that in the past as well, but I do things slightly different nowadays. I want to learn and I seek knew experience, so I'm trying to focus on that.
It gives me some time away from the reality and it gives me purpose, regardless of how weird it might sound, but I need that in my life right now. I need Hive in my life for various reasons, but the thing I miss the most is actually the feeling of doing good things. And I'm not only talking about the financial factor, even though all of us seek rewards and returns in one way or another.
I seek fulfillment and meaning in life and when my workplace sucks and my private life isn't what I really want it to be at this point in my life, Hive becomes a special place for me to be. It gives me motivation in ways nothing else gives me motivation nowadays.
Take away the money and I would still be here reading stories and living my life through others. I know, it sounds like I am truly fucked up, and sure, I might be, but it's not weird to me. Looking at people's vacation photos, reading epic stories about people's investments and watching gameplays or whatever, it gives me some sort of peace inside. It doesn't fix my problems by any means, but it functions like some sort of "pause"-button, so I get some time to breathe..
- And that means the world to me.
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Okay okay, 2021 was a shitty year in more than one way, but what about 2022..? - Honestly speaking, it won't take too much for this year to be better than the last, but I won't just sit around waiting for things to be better. I am going to take action, because that's how I will eventually fix things.
I have a couple of ideas in mind for the near future on Hive and perhaps more specifically LeoFinance, but those things will have to wait for a little bit longer. I am not ready for those things yet, and I am perfectly okay with being honest about that.
That being said, I have some goals, and even though I don't really like to put up milestones and set goals to reach, (because things usually goes south), I have some minor goals for myself this year. I've already talked about private stuff, so I'll go into my actual Hive journey this time.
I had to start over from scratch this year which means starting over from zero. I have actually published an ebook a few years back and part of that name was: "from zero to hero".
I won't be stupid and go all the way to "hero" though, because that would probably sound like I am going to be a wealthy whale by the end of 2022.. And that won't happen.
What will happen though is this:
- I will continue to share content I want to share.
- I will continue to use Hive the way I want to use it.
- I am going to use my stake (regardless of the amount) the way I want to use it.
And if we are looking at actual numbers, my goal is to invest approximately $5000 in total this year, on Hive tokens. I might push that number up to around $7500, but time will tell. I still haven't decided on which tokens I should buy, but I am likely to invest the majority in Hive and the rest of it in LEO tokens. Yeah, I am talking about FIAT investment instead of the amount of tokens I will buy.
I also need some room for investments outside of Hive, but I am likely to use roughly 25% of my Hive earnings for investments in Bitcoin in the future. If things goes well, I might continue to do this for many years to come, but I can't allow myself to think that far yet.
As the Swedish tax agency screwed me hard last year, I will do things differently this year. I won't be treated like a puppet anymore and even though it was a hard lesson, I have learned from that experience. This is just the beginning.
- My Time Is Now. Period.
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Glad you are back buddy!
Sorry to hear about your workplace, like that sucks major :/ Mine is the other way around, I with the people nicely but the core job fking sucks and I am looking for a new one xD
Might look into getting a Life Coach? It costs a bit, but I have one and it have been worth it for me.
Also, how do you deal with the tax now? Like after you got "caught"? How does that work
Yeah, it's actually quite difficult being torn between loving my job but hating my workplace..
I'll go to a psychologist in about a month. It's the second meeting, but we'll try to focus on the PTSD. He thinks that is one of biggest issues for me, so we'll see how that goes. I'll obviously talk with him about work and stuff as well.
In terms of taxes, it's not "that big of a deal" in that sense actually, but it has become a tax debt so they want me to pay the debt for the crypto I owned between 2016 and 2020 before it's declaration time.
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Okay cool, thats good :D
Hmm okay, makes sense.
But what about the crypto you earn forward? Will that be added to the debt? x)
No. Well, it might be, if I don't pay back the debt I have now. But otherwise, I'll just pay taxes on my profits upon next declaration.
Okay interesting way the governments are going about this.
You need a good amount of savings the for this unless you are willing to sell.
Ohh well, I hope for the best for you brother
The post-traumatic stress disorder is probably much more common than we would think. Most people do not like to be in their jobs. They do it, because they have to, and not because they love it. I know that you love your job, just not the current circumstances in your workplace.
I hope that everything will turn to be good, and that you will enjoy doing your job again without any distraction from your co-workers.
Happy New Year.
Have a nice day. All the best. Greetings and much love from Hungary.
Thank you, I appreciate it. Yeah, that is true actually. Especially as you can live with PTSD for your entire life if you don't treat it properly. My PTSD doesn't come from work or things like that though, but it's still one of the main reasons for my well-being in general, because it's lying there underneath everything sort of.
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Got a little more than I bargained for with this one.
Try to keep up the grind and not run out of steam.
Easier said than done I know.
Need to know our own limits and ourselves in general.
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Yeah, sorry about that. The post turned out a bit differently than I first imagined.. lol. But it feels good to put things on paper sometimes.
We sure need to know our own limits, and even though I've never been exactly sure what my limits are, I've never felt "allowed" to reach them. No matter how hard things are or whatever happens, I've just kept going.
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Take your time. We will still be here when you return. I hope things get better but I think your investment decision is fairly good. Just invest in what you believe in.
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I know, right..
Hive is just one of those places that actually allows me to be whoever I am. Some likes it, others won't. But the things is that I don't really care about what others think in a place like this in that sense. Most of them (the users) just ignores me if they don't feel the need to say things. It's different from my job for instance, where people actually continue to talk trash and bullshit just to hurt others.
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That is quite unfortunate but most of real life is still social so we don't have a choice but to interact. I would prefer it if they didn't do such things but that is life.
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