Peace through Pain
"Do you know the reason for the pain?" Inuke asked me.
"Dude!! You were there when the doc went inside me." I replied.
"No, Bro. I missed the part when the doc was inside you". Inuke replied without missing a beat.
“Tsk. Leave me alone” I felt the irritation.
“I am just kidding. Let's get serious. Tell me.” Inuke asked me.
“Tell you what exactly?” I replied. Still confused about what he actually wants from me.
"Do you know the reason for the pain?" Inuke asked again, his tone was different. First time in these many years. I have seen him concerned about me.
"The damn bacteria". I replied still a little annoyed that he is asking the question even when he knows the answer.
“Nope.” inuke replied.
“Yes, bacteria is not the reason for the pain.” inuke answered my Eh.
I looked at him still confused.
“Yup, bacteria is there somewhere. Almost 80% of the human population has this bacteria. You remember what the doc said. Right? All of them are on meds?” inuke said.
“Tsk, get to the point yaar. I am already suffering from pain. Don’t add more to it.”
“Ok, where does it hurt?”
“Right now. My head. Shut up and get lost.” I replied to inuke, not sure what has gotten into him.
“I will once you show me where exactly are you hurt?”
The bugger wasn’t going I guess.
“Here, I pointed to my abdomen. Happy Now?”
“Ah Ah... You still haven't answered. Don’t just randomly point. I want you to show me where is the pain originating from.”
“What stupidity is this yaar?”
“I promise, you show me and I will go away.” inuke
“It’s somewhere here…” and I couldn’t point it out. “Oye, it is hard to point when the entire body is hurting.”
“But still, It must start from somewhere. It is not like everything hurts all at once. Is it? Because if it is you definitely need to get checked again.”
“Well, No. Actually. I am not sure.”
“You mean to say you are hurting but not sure where?”
“No, No, I know it is my stomach but I think I get your point. This is my body and I should be able to feel it. If it hurt I should be able to understand my body and where it hurt. I need to listen to it and understand what it is saying. I should be able to point out the tissue that's damaged and should be able to tell them apart from the healthy ones. After all, it is my body. Am I right?” I asked inuke.
“What bullshit is that I just want to know where it hurts? Anyways, If you need someone to talk to please don’t come to me. Go find your cell or do whatever… Baaahhhhhhh. Kya bakwas karta hain ye aadmi” (Eng Trans. - What a load of crap.)
By now, I think even the news channel in the far west is reporting on my illness or at least my stupid brain is thinking in that sense. Anyway, I am sharing this post because I think it may or may not be able to help you. But for me, I was able to calm myself down and had a meditation or mindfulness session even when I was in pain. And this was a very different experience for me. I was able to rest a little after the session and finally had some peace of mind. I am recovering fine and should be able make more annoying post soon. ❤️☮️
This is inuke signing out for the day, hoping for a better tomorrow.
Oh!! Almost forgot.