Venting: Thoughts on Anxiety, Depression, Steem, and the Coronavirus

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Stepping back is 100% okay. It sounds like your parents are stressed out and forgot that you are, too. Sending peaceful thoughts, deep breaths, kitty snuggles, good food and adequate exercise. You're not the only one with a brain that works like that. Not alone at all. Take care of yourself, my friend. (((hugs)))

I wanted to say something helpful but instead I said this.

Take a step back, spend some time for yourself, spend some quality time with your cat, and know that it's okay to feel broken. We're all broken in some form or another, in various degrees; we can all be broken together.

You and I haven't interacted all that much, but from when we have I've felt that you're pretty talented, and pretty awesome too. I'm pretty sure you'll be just as talented and awesome when this finally passes.

Pet the kitty!!!

And relax and watch the world. Things will keep going. Pick a good plan.

And yeah it's my 3rd bday here sometime!!! This is awesome!!!!

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Hello Isaria! Sorry to hear that! I understand you because that's how I feel sometimes. Go for a walk in a park, or have a coffee with someone. Don't watch the news, go to the movies, watch funny movies, talk to your friends. Read a book that's different from what you usually read, surround yourself with happy people and take a vacation from blokchain. I hope you find something to make your life happier! Greetings!

Take care of yourself. I had debilitating anxiety for years, it still can impact me, but not like the old days.

Distance if you want/need to, but if you ever need a chat feel free to DM.

Isaria thanks for being so candid and sharing what's going on in your life. I think most of us can relate.
We are all our own worst critics, and saboteurs. Nothing at all wrong with taking a break from it all. Only you know what's best. Immerse yourself in music, and other things that interest you. Your creativity is something special and extraordinary

You've gotta do what you've gotta do sometimes!!! As far as this realm goes, everyone on steemit loves you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sorry to hear that your anxiety is so ramped up, but I do understand how and why you're feeling that way.
I really don't understand this whole thing of blaming the witnesses for this stuff. They simply did what they thought was best for the chain at the time. It seems that a lot of people who are angry with them now didn't like them much before all this stuff happened, and now they get to vent about it. And, of course, that helps no one.

"I live with this daily stress:

Not feeling good enough
Not feeling like I am accomplishing enough toward my goals
Feeling like I am a disappointment to my parents and family
Worrying about my 18-year-old cat who is likely ready to be euthanized
Worrying about my actual other health conditions
Generally hating myself and feeling like a failure"

"Work is easy. True idleness requires courage and fortitude" - Johann Hamann, 1760

You've been indoctrinated that you 'need' to achieve.

After that even the slightest perceived 'failure' to achieve leads to depression and the 'poor me drama'

First step is lose the 'need' - for anything.
When you need nothing you are never disappointed. Never depressed. Because you have NO reason to be depressed.

Then have the courage to tell anyone you thinks you're not up to scratch to shove it. You'll feel a lot better for the experience

Just chill like Chad yo!!!

Some astronomical factors indicating these feelings may be out of our control:

• an upcoming change of season (and here we just advance the clock by one hour)
• a full Supermoon yesterday (when the moon is full and at its closest to the Earth)
• the ending of a Mercury Retrograde phase (which is believed to be a time when progress is hindered)

Often when I'm having a bad time, putting things into a macrocosmic perspective has a reassuring effect on me.

It is stressful but I believe we will prevail! I am sorry you have to deal with all the extra health issues and I do hope you feel better soon. It was a good small sign to receive a Binance apology letter yesterday. I think everything will work out- it does make me so sad to hear Aggroed as he is exhausted and is doing such a fantastic job as well as all the witnesses for our Steem community that we all love. It was a good thing to see the community come together as one to fight Tron. Just try to take a mini-break and forget about it all for a few hours or more and come back refreshed! I was forced to do that when Twitter froze my account for almost 2 days for spamming Tron/Justin Sun and the Exchanges! LOL!!! We all have to take little breaks- then come back fighting as one for STEEM!!

I can relate to this on so many levels, but for now I'll simply be...

You are not alone.
This is a wide spread phenomenon.
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Chocolate is your friend. Bad for hugging as it tends to melt and gets a bit messy.

hugs I so have been feeling this feel. Plus budget cuts at school so everything feels like it's in limbo.... sending good vibes your way <3

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i have a lot of your exact same issues.
i had a serious panic attack several days ago which i could not manage.
I found some ray of hope in the coron virus thing as a treatment has surfaced that seems to work.
please see this video as it was very helpful in understanding how it all works:

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Take care. Much love to you. I hope you feel better now.