Can I do a short post today?

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Can I do a short post today? I do not have the will to write anything. The person who gives me the drive to write on days I do not want to have shut the door of motivation.
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He shut it and left with the keys, and right now, I feel terrible because it's my fault. I have hurt him. It took me this long to do it. Me, who doesn't waste time hurting someone finally served him.

Every time I come upon him, all I think about is how to draw him close and touch him in all the right places and watch him do the same to me. He is too beautiful to be ignored and he has a smile that warms me in a way I can't explain. Once he is faking a frown or anger it's so funny that we both break out laughing hard. I can be myself around him, and gracious me, I have disclosed a lot of things I wouldn't tell another person to him. I like him. But I am hurting him.

Yep. I know those paragraphs do not match but forgive me, I am distracted, I can't get my thoughts together. In short, I am staring blankly at my favorite drink. I haven't had it in the last four days because we haven't had a power supply. Now, I had been given a chill one, one that was supposed to quench the four-day-old thirst. But here I am watching it get hot, no, warm, no .... Goodness, what's the word for it again?

"I want it too!!! I wanted to scream it so he can hear me, but you know what my voice said when it came out of my throat? She said something different... Entirely different. "Uhmm, I am sorry for leading you on, I shouldn't have. I am sorry I can't give you what you want. Instead of hurting you, let's stop being close" Yes, that's what my silly voice said instead of the one line of sentence that proves it's not a one-sided affection. Damn it!!!

What did he say? Nothing. He isn't responding. And as the silence continues, my excitement about doing all my favorite things in the world vanishes.

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my heart is hurting reading this :(

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My heart hurt more when I tried to write the words. 😔

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my sweet heart girl.

i know the feeling. know the pain. know the conflict. know the agony.

just feel my hug around you and take a deep breath, and pray, and then go to sleep and try to get a full night's sleep and let your mind work things out in the night.

tomorrow - come back and have another crack at it. and maybe be more honest with your feelings.

one day won't change much.

but rest, breathe. pray. sleep

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She got served for always serving others. Don't let your ego make you lose the one thing that motivates you and gives you happiness.

Drop that ego and confess your feelings to him

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Oh God! This must be painful. I can't even begin to imagine. Is there anything I can do to make you feel better? I am on discord if you want to vent!🙂

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Thanks babe. I really appreciate. But I just want to close my eyes and hope it goes away once I wake up 🥺😔

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I totally understand babe. But why can't you just take it back if it hurts so much?

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I don't even know what's wrong with me 🥺😔😩

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I understand babe. Been there once. How are you feeling today?

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hope you get your feelings sorted soon. Hugs.

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Dear @iskafan , As I read your sentences, I remembered the saying that women should hide their hearts and feelings as much as possible.

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Oh really? Why do you always say we should hide our feelings? 😏

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I am so sorry baby girl, I recently went through a breakup that almost shattered me so I get what you mean.

I'll advise you to share your emotions, especially if it isn't one sided, life is too short to play it safe.

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Recently... Like recently? 🥺

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Yeah 😆 recently.

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She is laughing 😂😂😂.... Mad girl 🤣🤣🤣

I am sorry babe 🥺

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I no do anything bad na so I no go laugh; we move baby girl 😆

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Awn!! Such feelings. Time and tide, all will be sorted out. I don't feel what you you are feeling, it hurts.
#dreemport led me here.

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Yeah. Time and tide will sort it out. I believe it too. Thanks for reading.

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This got me so emotional.
But I think you should go back and tell him exactly how you feel.

We need to tell people the next we feel, when we feel them and how we feel them.
Don't hold it back

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I am so sorry about how I made you feel. I'll do the needful. Thanks for your support and for reading. 💚

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You are always welcome.

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Why are you being so hard on yourself. I mean why not just let him know exactly how you feel about him. You want him yet you push him away.

Try reaching out again and this time, let him know you feel same way

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I'll do just that Zyzy. Thanks for your support. 🥺💚

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♥️♥️♥️. All will be well.

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I believe it too. Thank you. 💚

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Maybe I misinterpreted this but why do I feel the person you were referring to isn't a real person😁 anyway, that's by the way. I am sorry for what you are going through, every writer gets writer's block, and also you should look for another muse cos life goes on. Be strong girl😎

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Hahaha... No, if it was fiction, I'll use the tag. A large percentage of stories on my blog are true events except if I use the inkwell or fictional tag.

Thanks for reading @zonniasparkle. Glad to have you back 🤗

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Noted dear. Am I really back? Fingers crossed

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Hehehehe.... Please, be back to stay fully 🥺

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I really don't know what's holding back but I really hope you let him know your mind if he truly has a huge impact on you.

You are strong, you will get over it but the memories of the good times will be hard to erase. He might be feeling the way you are as well, you should break the bridge.

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You are right. I might be able to get over it, but, the memories will still be there. I'll do something about this. Thank you.

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oh, my heart... this journey of yours with this man... I hope you were able to get a good night's sleep last night. Hold a mirror up to your own heart and be true to it. Don't lose something because you don't know what to do with those feelings of yours. If you think you've made a mistake in pushing him away, go tell him, don't live life with regrets. Big hugs ❤️ !LUV !ALIVE

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I do need to hold up that mirror because I have to sort this out before I mess it up.🥺 Thanks for reading Sam. 💚

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So sorry baby girl. It happens. What can I say? I wish you find your sparks again and whatever issue there is I pray you'd be able to resolve it soon.❤️

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Thank you so much love. I appreciate. 💚💚

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