Just thinking
Many things are difficult to understand in all human beings, far or near, it is unpredictable.
Some time ago I heard that we can't really get to know anyone, not even ourselves.
Maybe a little far off in reality, but what I am sure of is that, as I mentioned, it is complicated to deal with other people, especially those who, not that they are different from us in conformity with what we call correct, but rather, I am referring to people who only put their own interests above others.
Recently I have come to know someone who, no matter how much help has been given to her, no matter how much love is shown to her, she only lives thinking of herself, in those cases, I have come to wonder if it makes sense to help her.
On the other hand, I have come to know a person who lives in the past, always brings up the things that happened before, and lives feeding those feelings.
Unfortunately, no matter how much effort has been made to get her to change her mind, she is only focused on her opinion, regardless of what others or others think.
In this regard, I look back, meditating on what we have and can become as human beings, ungrateful and disloyal.
I have come to think about what, no matter what happens, and who does it, it will always be the bad inside of us that will come out, no matter that this itself causes harm to ourselves.
Reason?
I still try to understand, to put myself in the place of each person, to understand their feelings, to perhaps love as I would have liked them to love me, but I forget what, these people have not desired such affection, it is me who has decided to show it.
So is it better to restrain oneself in front of that, or rather, to be more cautious?
I don't know, the answer to this question is a bit disturbing, so much so, that some days I have even spent too much time thinking about this very issue, perhaps believing to find an answer quickly, or to find the solution to it.
How long will I have to deal with it?
For a short time actually, less than I imagine, but that is how I have thought about the time that has passed so far, while I write these lines, and while I am being whipped with great force by the fond memories where almost nothing worried me, perhaps before I was born.
In itself, the point of dealing with other people's attitudes, is the issue that consumes me enormously, it really leaves me without energy, it is as if I was sinking trying to understand, but understanding that everyone does what they want, causes me insomnia.
I know we have to stop doing it, but it is more complicated than it really is, it is more difficult than I have believed.
Some days I just want to let time pass, longing for the end of what makes a dent of intrigue inside me, which on some days makes me absolutely furious, even so, I know that someday everything will get better, that it's just a matter of time.
Ismael D. Rodríguez
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