No Excuse: I'm Just Lazy

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Hello there.
It's been so long again.
This time, no excuse, I'm just lazy.

I'm not sure how what has gotten to me 2 Days ago, I tried to withdraw and well, after 2 apps, bBinance and Maya, I got my 100php.

So yeah,another motivation to get back to this, to earn some for my personal wants.

The store is going well and I spent much with its papers like permits and stuff, at last, I had it in my name legally.

If you know me with my previous blogs, this news might sound impossible; I got myself a boyfriend. Yeah, you read it right.

He's very smart especially in emotional aspect and I am so envious of him with such. It's very evident that I'm too emotional. Haha

Anyway, it was his birthday few days ago and I wrote him a poem.

Here it is.

With my vocabulary decreasing so much these days,
I'm struggling to put words and phrases for your birthday;
Truth be told, I cleaned my bicycle to think,
Funny, I had so many thoughts but I can't get them to link.

My thoughts did wander so far in the future,
I know I shouldn't but I could be so immature;
There are days I'm kind of having major scare
That you're so awesome, a gem so rare.

I have heard a similar narrative in the past,
I can't help but think that it's impossible we'll last;
It's kind of amazing for you know how to moderate,
Lest we find ourselves so emotionally illiterate. (Haha)

I'm really in doubt, so apprehensive
As a write these, I am sad it's not so expressive;
It may be true or just my morale so low,
You're a demigod so thanks for looking here below.

I love you and I know you're convinced,
I do feel like what hurts me will also make you winced;
You've been saying that most things you do understand,
Jelly's so grateful, hopeful you're not a sinking sand.

Currently, I'm struggling to keep my cool, seems like it's in my DNA to be such a "boa constrictor". hahaha

He knows me too much, can read my emotion and reprimanded me that I shouldn't be offended if he's living his life, more like, he still needs to live. He's in depressive state and of course, I do understand and really know how it feels.

So yes, gonna give him space and because I deactivated my Facebook account, here I am again.

This platform feels like home as I keep coming back. Haha

-*
Photo's mine.

Thank you for reading.
Ciao!



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There's always an underlying reason for laziness. Lack of motivation, etc.

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Indeed. Haha and money is my motivation now.

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Well hello Jelly and well done that is brilliant news about the shop and your boyfriend. Everything seems to be going great for you.

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Boyfriend is pretty distant and I'm struggling with money here in store. Hahaha it's not that well.

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