My first love wasn't genuine.

Trust me when I say that it wasn't real.

All my life I have dated just 3 guys. I was still quite naive when I met the first 2 boyfriends and the third boyfriend is currently my son's dad and ex-partner, Yes! Life happened.

If I were to be very sincere with myself, I would say that my son's dad, who is currently my ex-partner, was my first love.

When I met the first guy, I didn't even know what dating someone or what asking someone out meant. It all started like this.

Let me take you back in time hehe

Back then, I was always following my sister to her friend's place, I'm sure that the friend was her boyfriend at that time.

I always followed her to the place and would stay there, seated in the living room and after having spent enough time, we would leave and return home.

If my memories are correct, I remember her telling me about her friend who was saying that he likes me, I blushed and all I could do was just laugh like it was a silly joke I heard. One talk led to another talk which I can't clearly remember at the moment. I remember her saying that we should bet some money down.

The betting was about me not being able to say YES to the guy if he came to meet me.

So I was challenged that if I can say yes, I would get the $2 we had bet down.

At that time, I didn't know anything at all, I was completely naive about everything. All I remembered was that the next day we went there, the guy who had had his eyes on me came to meet me and asked if I could be his girlfriend. On remembering the bet I had with my sister the previous day, I said Yes! Without knowing what I was saying yes to and that was how the boyfriend/girlfriend thing started for me.

Because of this topic, I can think back, which is amazing. The truth is that I never was in love with him, I just said that YES casually and saw him only as a friend.

A few months into the relationship, he started asking me what I promised myself never to do until it was the right time. Guess what!

I kept the promise I made to myself and never engaged myself in intimacy and all that. However, I remember him asking me to kiss him, and knowing that I had never done it before, I would always shudder at the thought of it and most time decline, saying that I couldn't do it. At that time, I would think that even a kiss can get me pregnant, so that was one reason why I always ran away from it but in the end, it happened, he kissed me.

Was it a great feeling?

I can't remember but, I felt like I had committed a great sin when it happened hehe. Guess what happened afterward?

The funny thing is that I didn't feel heartbroken when this happened, probably because I wasn't so in love with him, I had only said yes to being a girlfriend.

I caught the guy cheating on me with another girl. The good thing is, that I was wise enough to not continue with the relationship.

I only got to find out that he cheated because I refused to lay with him and didn't give him the chance to be touchy.

Well, that's it.

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