MY FIRST CRUSH PAINFUL STORY (PART ONE)

Love is indeed beautiful, it's more beautiful with the true and rightful person.

I grow up in a home where pressing (hustle) to make a living and survival was not easy, we do trade and farming at low level to survive. All farming process involve human as there is no money to apply machine or chemical. So I don't really have the chance or privilege of this family deep and interactive moment except for night when our parent tells us story. When I say family deep and interactive moments, it's doesn't mean we don't love each other or the family is not peace.... Nooo... Far from it we maintain high level of peace to the best of our ability, we love each other so much, deep bond to the point when one is is to be punish every of the children ends up crying for each other lolol.. 😂 kind of funny right?? Yeaaaa.... It's funny (Laugh 😂...).
I had my first crush at high school, a beautiful girl who happen to be my friend (twin) and the daughter of our proprietor. They were twin but I actually fell in love with one of them.

Our bond as friends was very strong to the point we don't feel or enjoy school when any of us is absence from school, and it's happens that my twin bestie are always absent from school every marker day and those moment in school can be very lonely 😔 and boring for me, can't wait for the school to close.
I was deeply in love 💕 with her and in my imagination I picture wedding, home and children but could only show care physically and kept my feelings as much as I could because I cherish the friendship so much and won't want opening up to cause separation between us. It's not as if I lack the boldness to approach her and experience my feelings but I will confuse sha the boldness was not 100% but what I have then could serve me if I wanted to make my feelings known to her. But instead I told myself to calm down and wait till after high school and just continue as close friend.
It's happens that we finish high school and was to prepare for higher institution (University) and this happen....(Heartbreak 💔 can really break someone)..... To be continue
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