Excerpts From My Struggles

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I've been struggling of late, financially and health-wise too, financially in the sense that I've spent so much money attending to familial needs and in the process of doing this, I've not had enough time to fully prepare for the bear market. I was supposed to go into a business partnership with a friend this year, but he's got his issues to handle and hence we couldn't kickstart that business. We're in a waiting period, but then, along the line, I've spent the money on needs that sufficed as emergencies. I've planned to go to the hospital for a while now, but my medical condition is just to stay stress-free and take my medicine, but for two weeks I haven't done that. I booked an appointment with my aunt, to see the doctor, but I'm majorly scared of the rigorous process of getting medical help, so all I did was procrastinate.

Even in the midst of all these, I've been trying to move to a house of my own after staying with my aunt for over 10 years evening as I was shuffling to get a diploma over the years. This became important to me because I felt I needed to kickstart my life, I've discovered that living with one's extended family makes them Financially irresponsible. This is because needs are endless. In most Nigerian homes financial dependence isn't about who has money, it's about depending on that person who can afford a nice cloth. This was primarily the reason why I felt I needed to find a place and stay on my own. This hasn't come without a repercussion. I and a friend have been hoping to get a two-bedroom apartment for two weeks, but everything has been futile and we've had to move from one location to another.

This has made both of us very sick. Mine is fair, but it's been prolonged and I've been managing it for over 6 weeks. Some days ago, a friend @kbanti saw one of my videos on my WhatsApp, and of course, even while I was trying to be smooth and all that, he's noticed I was sick, even when I could post and be here, it was visually evident that I was ill. I'm not one to talk about my issues in life and this is because of my desire to create the illusion that I'm afloat, even when I'm drowning.

The positive side to this is that sometimes, the illusion I create becomes my reality, especially if I keep very long at it. I have very few good people in life, and I'm lucky to have them. My life has been a mess and sometimes I feel it's a burden to try and lay it on people, sometimes I feel it's too complicated for them to process. The times I've tried, I just end up losing people, it's not rocket science to understand that sometimes we lose people in life because they can't seem to comprehend the advantage of having you in their life when the good times are fewer than the bad times.


Opppsss enough of this meandering

......Long story short. We've not been able to secure an apartment because they're either too expensive or not good enough. The ones that are affordable and good enough have massive competition and every time we try to secure a place, we're met with "oh someone just paid for the property five minutes ago" Lagos Nigeria is the most competitive place in Africa, you have to be financially, mentally and physically equipped to swim the ocean of competitiveness. I felt I overestimated my capacity in any of these three conditions and I've been met with a massive hit to my health and here I am struggling again.

I like to appreciate @kbanti, man saved me some days ago. It wasn't in the saving, it was how timely it came from a fellow friend who's been struggling too. When my health improves, I'll get back into looking for a house. This time, I hope to take the maximum time to reflect on what I want to do with my life, do I want to keep living and not knowing when else I'll fall sick, in my quest to go through the stress of life to put food on the table and live comfortably. For now, I would make all efforts to go to the government hospital after I secure a place. That's going to be stressful because the competition to get healthcare from the government hospitals in Lagos is crazy, but I hope in two or three months from now, I can gladly return to talk about how I've conquered.



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Hey Jose. Am rooting for you to overcome your health issues. As much as possible try and make it a priority, and leave no stone unturned when it comes to getting better. Every other thing will fall in place. Warm regards

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Thank you, it's a priority, the system just makes it so difficult. Thank you again for coming through.

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You're a fighter. This is no match for you for sure. But I do strongly suggest you see a doctor asap. Health they say is wealth for real, so please brother see the doc as soon as you can.

I feel your struggles of finding a place in Lagos.
I got lucky here as it was my sister who went sourcing for me and it isn't a fancy place but it's pretty decent and I'm happy with it.

I also hope you try to share some of your burden with your closest friends, you'd be surprised how better you'd feel.

You will overcome mate. I'm rooting for ya 🙏🤲🏿

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Mehn, the craze in the general hospital is something else, but that's definitely what I'll be doing along the way. As for Lagos, I've lived all my life here and I've had people doing the searching for me, plus, my aunt owns a property in the suburbs of Lagos, so I haven't really lived on my own.
Anyways, these things happen, it's not like I'm complaining, I know everything is inevitable but then, man's a man, the frustration can get to one.

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I feel you bro, but please complain. 😅You need to.

Safe gee 🙏

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keep fighting my friend never give up on anything, I'm sure you can overcome it.

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Damn it bro, I do notice your activity dropped slightly on the chain and I mean slightly for someone going through all this, it is expected to miss a day or two without posting but you still squeeze in time to create content. Hope you get well soon.

As for family responsibility, I can relate this is something that is just a culture in Africa which puts a dent in the growth of the person carrying all the responsibility but on the other hand we just can't ignore...

We've not been able to secure an apartment because they're either too expensive or not good enough.

Or the landlord wants to see you have 8 hours a day job

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but you still squeeze in time to create content.

Not really. I use to write posts beforehand and keep them in my notes, then when I have emergencies or I'm not able to write, I just post them, I've not written anything In three days except for today. Only reliant on my arsenal of contents to be active. It's all exhausted now. I may not post tomorrow, if I find the energy I might..
The family responsibilities has hit he more than my expectations. I'm hoping I can get better, move and take a break to recover over the course of two months.

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I had to reread to confirm if you're an arsenal fan, lol.

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So sorry about everything you are going through right now
Tough times don't last but tough men

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I am so sorry about what you are going through, I have been sick for two weeks so I totally understand that aspect and I hope you can seek medical care; please do.

About the housing, y'all keep making me scared of Lagos 😆 I think I should just stay back in my small calm state.

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Mine has been reoccurring for 6 week now, makes it frustrating, guess it's the endless grind to make sure one doesn't financially implode. Thank you and take care too.

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Get well soon. Health is wealth so it's a wise decision to focus on that for now and other things will follow later.

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You're absolutely right. Thought I won't say this is lethal, it's just be reoccurring. Thank you.

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It is definitely not new that in life challenges will occur but how will fight to overcome it matters. I wish you well and I believe you can overcome such situations, stay strong.

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I admire your enthusiasm buddy! All these time being consistent and live with pressure (both financially and health wise) is indeed a strees. But You have come this far so in the future you are going to do great. All the best for the home.
TBH I was not able to prepare for the bear market as well. So I know how it feels but we move on and keep on going no matter what!

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Well, everything comes with a price, weighing these price makes one wonder if it's truly worth it. Thanks, I'll make sure to take care.

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Sounds like you're the responsible member of the family supporting other people just as I am here on the other side of the pond.

I think sometimes we need to take stock of where things stand and create space to take care of ourselves for a change. It's tough to do so when people rely on you for the necessities of life when no one else in the family will pitch in and help.

I share your struggle in the financial and responsibility department although my health is fine. I'd be much better if there were others here willing to share the care for my terminal relative, but its me or nobody, and I'm not going to leave an elder to suffer alone. It's not my way.

So we shoulder the responsibility and make the correct moral choices knowing that somebody "up there" knows what we're doing and is taking note of it. I'm glad to see that you plan to look after your health because the one thing we have a limited amount of in life is time.

So set aside some and take time for you. Peace.

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A whole lot of responsibilities and the thoughts of them alone overwhelms me.
This is the reason why I want to go away and try to see if I could desist or reduce the pressure of these responsibilities on me.
It's totally killing. But like you said, I'm the type that's used to catering for all asundry, even at my own expenses.
I enjoyed doing it while I was financially bouyant, but a time comes in one's life where the money isn't there like it used to.

It's quite difficult when there's more to take care of but the resources is just too little to do anything.

Thanks for all your advice, I'm taking my time to sort out everything.

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I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling. Yeah it is a lot better to find a place of your own but if you can’t now, it’s okay too. It’s more important to focus on your health and I hope you’re gonna be better soon.

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Yeah, I think I'll need to find my place, I think it's essential to establishing and build up my life, but then it doesn't come without the life stress. Thanks a million, I'll take a step back to doing it right.

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Jose sir with all due respect i don't feel sorry for you at all. Let me tell you why. i've watched you jose for a long long time come on here everyday exploring these articles. LIke a prophet i came here and i brought a message for the righteous. What was that message? my message was that universal basic income would help every man. That universal basic income was the answer to humanity.

You ignored that message though jose.. i feel you did willfully. I don't like the brag jose but i have more land holdings more money more brains more good looks than most people i know. i guess you could say i'm the type person who has it all.. almost. i say almost because i'm having trouble getting my ubi program to fly and i don't feel like i should be having any trouble looking at the data
I eat what i want jose.. i go where i want.. i date who i want.. i do what i want

i don't have to do anything @themarkymark

i do it because the God in me compels me to do it. You're in trouble now jose and you'd like someone to help you but how many people have you helped? Not once in your articles did i find much content on the homeless or compassion..No i didn't but you'd probably like some of that

I"m not going to judge you because i'm here to help you. None of these hive people going to step up and help you they don't do that.. or they don't do it very well. they going to give you a pep talk but i can't do it by myself jose. Everybody here knows my mission they say it will fail.. i can't believe that because if i fail alot of people suffer. So i believe i will succeed.

You're a black man alot of suffering not just in africa but in america the average black person is 7x poorer than the average american. My program is to lift every man but it will lift the black man it seems at a rate in someways more than others because of the level of poverty in minority groups. it wouldn't matter to me who it was or what group thats why i support ubi

I want you to think about where you are and why you there. i want you to not only think about why you are there but why so many are like you there and i want you to care about them being there and then i want you to do something about it.

in all your writing i haven't seen one article about actually helping people effectively.. not one ubi article although you probably need it. not good jose but you live and you learn.

i have a family member who was like many of you on hive.. he was greedy, didn't care about others followed the status quo.. only thought about himself @edicted

Then he asked to come stay at my 7 acre luxury villa one of my properties. Do you know what i told him? i told him the answer was no. Jose you reap what you sow" he had sewn a bad seed. it's important that he suffer because in suffering he learns compassion for others.. perhaps you will as well. it's time you joined the cause jose because i fear your problems are just beginning as well as many many others. you say you're sick. Why do you think i do this and take this abuse for nothing. why do you think i build systems that give people money of my own dime?

you think i have to do that. i'm doing this for people like you jose. i could milk the system like @themarkymark if i really wanted to. i don't wanna do that. i don't have to do it.. i could if i wanted to i could already have done it or doing it now. you all don't know that but ubi not about making money it's about saving people. People like you and if my message is successful it creates a domino effect and you can imagine how many people get helped in the process

your fantasy crypto utopia is collapsing @taskmaster4450

celsius the next system to utterly fail @chekoler

@bearbear613 what does your ancient text say about me? lol

my ubi will save the jewish state and keep the palestinians off your collective asses

those people just want access to clean water over there what's wrong with you all

Now Jose i'm going to build you up a new man.. my words are recognizably true but it's time you stepped away from the bullshit. this message is for you all not just Jose. Many of you in the state Jose is in and you know it.. you hope hive will save you. you dream about $100 hive it's never going to happen i'm telling you it's not. Stop thinking about money as your solutions that's the first mistake. Man creates money it doesn't create man

i always have abundance deomonstrable in my everyday life but i will not enrich a corrupt system i don't care how much @themarkymark entices me to do so. i'm not paying your bills marky mark until you do what i say, lol

Don't get distracted Jose seek out the truth of my message for your own sake

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Please I want none of this rubbish on my post not now, not in the future not any longer. If you've got a beef with anyone, take it to them, take the warning and don't reply, else.

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beef.. i think marky mark is a joke and nor he do i have the problem you are the one with the problem sir. well try to solve it your way and i hope for your sake it gets better

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If marky is your problem take your problem to him and solve it, please there's enough FUD to go around and I won't like to act inappropriately.

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marky is no problem he'll be redeemed soon, he's not beyond saving.. he'll be baptized in the destruction of these markets soon. it's all about to crash. although in fairness i shouldn't expose you guys to marky's wrath he's so petty he'll attack you all because he can't hurt me unlike him i care about you guys.. in your wallet there will be some bbd coins i'm sure you can use them good luck to you.. you're all going to need it for the crashes to come. only ubi will save you all and it won't be a choice

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Sorry to hear all this… it all is a struggle.
You need to listen to your body. It is so important. You do need your health, without it you’re lost.
Hope you get well soon. We will be here, don’t worry.
Take care!

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Thank you, I have no other choice than seeking the road to recovery.

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Sorry to hear you haven't been feeling well, and seriously it sounds like you have too much on your plate.

Just a thought here for your consideration, maybe you are trying to work on too many things at once.

What if you delay moving out for a bit especially since money is a tough topic right now, complete one goal and then take on the next.

No matter how you address things, I think you'll sort it out, because you are a problem solver.

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It looks like this time everything happened at the same time and I didn't get any warning that it was going to be pretty tough. Thanks for this, I totally appreciate

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Take care of yourself bro. You only get one health, and you have to take care of it over everything. Because if you don't have health, what do you have?

I know it's easier said than done, and the bear market isn't helping.. But keep your head up. You can make it. You will make it.

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Well, I got so busy and never prepared well for the bear that's going to hit. All in all, I'm banking on getting better soonest.

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You are human after all.
The idea of sharing a piece proves
you are getting better.
Hope for the best and I know you can
do what you want to accomplish.
Best of everything for you in Life.

!BEER

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Get well soon, get the attention you deserve.

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Lagos and its wahala in searching for a good apartment. No doubt, Lagos is for the toughest and big people because there would always be competition in such a place. It's not easy finding a good house that won't be expensive except for fewer areas where you can be lucky and aside that, one needs to really work hard to be able to feed. To be an adult, living in such big city isn't easy.

Your health is very important and I hope you take enough time to treat yourself because our health should be our priority. May God be with you 🙏

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