Anxiety|| My new reality, many changes to face.
Por lo general me amoldo rápido al nuevo ambiente y a la nueva situación.
No obstante, ya tengo tres meses que regresé a mi país después de cuatro años de vivir fuera, y aún no he logrado adaptarme a mi nueva realidad.
Change is always difficult for most people to cope with, however, I have always considered myself a person who is easy to adapt to.
I usually adapt quickly to the new environment and the new situation.
However, I have been back in my country for three months now after four years of living abroad, and I still have not been able to adapt to my new reality.
Ironically, it is a feeling of not belonging that overwhelms me. Actually, in all the time I lived in Peru, I never felt part of that country, nor of its culture and customs. However, I consider that I adapted very well to their lifestyle, they treated me very well and I met very kind and generous people, so I can not complain at all and I must confess that I miss a lot certain things that I liked and made me feel comfortable.
Now that I have returned to the place where I was born and where I have spent most of my life, the process of adaptation has been difficult and slow. Many things have changed, most of them for the better and I am very happy about that. However, it feels very strange not knowing how to do certain things, such as legal errands, bank transactions, refueling, among other things that seem to be very simple.
All this is normal if I were living in a foreign country, because I already lived it; I had to learn how to use the national currency, open bank accounts, get identity documents and use the subway to move from one place to another. But since I'm in my own country I'm supposed to know my way around, but I don't. I feel very silly to be in my own country all the time. I feel very silly to be all the time asking how this or that works.
I know this is a temporary thing and that I should not grieve or feel bad about this situation, but inevitably I feel like I don't belong anywhere and not being in control is something that causes me a bit of anxiety. Perhaps I am not the only person who has returned to Venezuela and experienced this feeling. But generally speaking, I am happy to be in my homeland with the people I love, it will just take me a little time to feel at home again and get used to this new lifestyle.
In writing these lines I just wanted to record in my blog the feelings and emotions that overwhelm me at this moment of my life. Sharing with you, dear readers, allows me to externalize and drain what my heart feels. I also greatly value all the advice, input and suggestions that you kindly leave in the comments, Once again, thank you for reading, greetings and many blessings.
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