New Beginning In The Hemlock Society
I've always thought about it but I thought I was just being irrational, right now it's all glaring and slapping me in my face.
I only wanted the best for myself after going through a lot in my last community, the Foray community.
Moving to New Shark and joining the Hemlock society proved to be the best decision I made and truly it's all worthwhile.
There's nothing to be suspicious about, I was welcomed with into the Hemlock society with open arms, the people were living and cheerful towards me and that was more of the reason i left Foray.
I couldn't just hit the nail on the head, you know that feeling when the signs are there, the energy is strong, regardless of the fact, something just triggers within 5o let go and that was the case.
I got the worse out of my stay at Foray community.
Now at New Shark, I've decided just to mind my business, doing something different, staying indoors more with less or no friends and putting my finances in place the best way I can. There had been a lot of distraction in Foray community because I moved into the town when I just began my journey of Independence.
It was all new to me, I was friendly and all smiles at every point in time, I had enough worry of my own and hid the burden I carried in my heart by being cheerful in the best way I can.
No one was actually responsible for my depression, all just unwind itself and I had to be spontaneous in my own way.
Staying with my parents for a long time when suddenly nothing was working out again, pop business hit the rock bottom, mum wasn't doing anything after she had stopped her business some fifteen years ago, so pop was the only one carrying the whole burden of the family when bad omen struck him. I just hoped it would pass sooner but it never did and here i am.
The Foray community was actually my first journey being alone and at first, it was bliss until I was taken for granted and then lost my self esteem. I never thought it would actually get better.
I met new new people who I became close to and became brothers to them so I thought because I took them that way but my cheek was just left in the open just like that without warning.
I saw the signs but being who I am, I didn't want to be alone because I grew up with family, a family of five and we were always there for each other.
I actually thought I had a new family, apparently, everyone is out there for themselves. I'm not that person that would be close to someone and watch them go through hell, just being there and connecting is enough so I assumed.
I was actually growing because the lessons and experiences gained would actually help me during my stay in the Hemlock society.
Right now, I know why I want which is self help first before any other consideration. It's definitely not a bad idea to get myself together and learn how to love myself again as it all was with my siblings and parents.
There's nothing else I want but to see a smile on everyone's face but surely not at my own expense because right now, I know better which is self love.
Loving myself to the best of my ability without trying to compromise it by putting someone else before me.
It's time for a new start in New Shark, in the Hemlock society.
Wonders surely would begin here for myself.