Un mes sin ti 🐾🖤 | A month without you🐾🖤 [ESP/ING]
¡Hola, linda comunidad de Hive!🐾🖤| Hello, beautiful Hive community!🐾🖤
I thought that my last post on the subject would be This is not goodbye but today I will express my feelings here and in this way somehow or another drain my heart a little because unfortunately after so many years together I have to complete my first month without Pamela. I warn that at times it seems like a letter written for her, I apologize but my heart asked for it.
Aunque ya he hablado muchísimo de esto y quizás es un tema que para ustedes este algo cansado viniendo de mi, la verdad es que siento que nunca me voy a quedar corta para hablar del tema... Durante este mes he tenido muchos altibajos, he tenido momentos de felicidad absoluta que acaban al bajar la cabeza para buscarte y recordar que ya no estás ahí, he tenido ataques de llanto al tropezarme con tus cosas o con tus recuerdos, he tenido impulsos inmensos de tatuarme algo relacionado contigo pero luego de un rato y e muchos abrazos de mi mamá vuelvo a calmarme. Dentro de poco comenzaré mis clases y eso significa que debo volver a mi lugar de residencia y es algo que me da mucho miedo, miedo por saber que en cada esquina de ese apartamento hay recuerdos de ella, hay cualquier anécdotas que contar y ni hablar de sus costumbres.
Although I have already talked a lot about this and perhaps it is a topic that for you is a little tired coming from me, the truth is that I feel that I will never fall short to talk about it .... During this month I have had many ups and downs, I have had moments of absolute happiness that end when I lower my head to look for you and remember that you are no longer there, I have had crying attacks when I stumble over your things or your memories, I have had immense impulses to get a tattoo of something related to you but after a while and many hugs from my mom I calm down again. Soon I will start my classes and that means that I must return to my place of residence and it is something that scares me a lot, fear to know that in every corner of that apartment there are memories of her, there are any anecdotes to tell and not to mention her customs.
Aún es bastante complicado cuando se hacen las 7 pm y no escuchar tus ladridos o escuchar tus patitas persiguiendome por para sacarte a pasear, tu emoción al agarrar tu cuerda y las llaves jajaja a veces parecía que me regañabas por no sacarte a tiempo, no sabes todo lo que te he llorado y toda la falta que me hace acariciar tus cabellitos, incluso hasta preparar las cosas para bañarte jaja. Desde aquella vez que les comenté que intentaría recordarla con sonrisas y sin llorar pues, les cuento que los objetivos no han sido nada logrados porque aún cuando algún recuerdo suyo invade mi mente es inevitable no convertirme en un mar de lágrimas.
It is still quite complicated when it is 7 pm and not hear your barking or listen to your little paws chasing me to take you for a walk, your excitement when you grabbed your rope and keys hahaha sometimes it seemed that you scolded me for not taking you out on time, you do not know how much I have cried and how much I miss caressing your hair, even to prepare things to bathe you hahaha. Since that time I told you that I would try to remember you with smiles and without crying, well, I tell you that the objectives have not been achieved at all because even when some memory of you invades my mind it is inevitable not to become a sea of tears.
Dejar entrar un peludo a tu vida es algo que le da un giro de 365° a todo tu mundo, solo saber que después de un largo día llegaras a casa y te encontrarás con alguien demasiado feliz de verte es uno de los mejores sentimientos y esas son las cosas que más pegan cuando lamentablemente los pierdes, para mí las noches son el peor momento porque siempre acostumbraba a darle unas cálidas buenas noches a Pamela, ella dormía un rato en mi cama y cuando ya sentía mucho frío se iba a su casa a dormir plácidamente hasta el otro día, ahora con su ausencia siento las noches demasiado vacías y es que falta una piensa muy importante en el rompecabezas de mi vida, Pamela.
Letting a furry into your life is something that gives a 365° turn to your whole world, just knowing that after a long day you will get home and find someone too happy to see you is one of the best feelings and those are the things that hit the hardest when you unfortunately lose them, for me the nights are the worst time because I always used to give a warm good night to Pamela, she would sleep for a while in my bed and when she felt too cold she would go home to sleep peacefully until the next day, now with her absence I feel the nights are too empty and there is a very important piece missing in the puzzle of my life, Pamela.
Poco a poco he aprendido a manejar mi dolor, he aprendido a aceptar que físicamente ya no estás conmigo pero tus recuerdos siempre los tendré en mi memoria recordándome que fuiste lo más feliz que un perrito puede ser, viajaste, corriste, jugaste, conociste a otros perritos, fuiste mamá, fuiste la mejor compañera y sobre todo fuiste feliz. Hoy miro las esquinas dónde te gustaba acostarte e incluso la parte de abajo de las camas tan vacías sin ti, sin tu calor y me cuesta creer que ha pasado un mes desde que ya no estás. Tu abuelita me repite constantemente que tú alma ya está en otro perrito, buscando la manera de conseguirme y yo de verdad quiero creerle, no sé si vimos demasiadas veces "La razón de estar contigo" jaja pero nunca había deseado tanto que una película tuviera la razón, donde sea que estés mi bella princesita solo espero que te estén dando todo el amor que te mereces, porque eres la más dulce (y dormilona) de todas. Aún recuerdo la última vez que te abrace, la última vez que te vi, mi corazón estaba roto porque te ibas pero aún me mantenía tranquila porque te volvería a ver, que equivocada estaba... Fue nuestro último adiós y no lo sabíamos.
Little by little I have learned to manage my pain, I have learned to accept that physically you are no longer with me but I will always have your memories in my mind reminding me that you were the happiest a doggy can be, you traveled, you ran, you played, you met other doggies, you were a mom, you were the best companion and above all you were happy. Today I look at the corners where you liked to lie down and even the bottom of the beds so empty without you, without your warmth and I find it hard to believe that it has been a month since you are gone. Your grandma keeps telling me that your soul is already in another doggy, looking for a way to get me and I really want to believe her, I don't know if we watched too many times "The reason to be with you" haha but I have never wished so much that a movie was right, wherever you are my beautiful little princess I just hope they are giving you all the love you deserve, because you are the sweetest (and sleepy) of them all. I still remember the last time I hugged you, the last time I saw you, my heart was broken because you were leaving but I still kept calm because I would see you again, how wrong I was..... It was our last goodbye and we didn't know it.
Para ser sincera mientras escribía este post tuve que darme muchos descansos porque partía en llanto y es que nunca espere pasar por esto tan pronto, en mi mente nos quedaban muchos años juntas, muchas fechas importantes que compartir y sobretodo mucho amor para darnos, me cuesta aceptar que ahora ya no celebraremos más cumpleaños juntas, ni Navidad, ni año nuevo, pero espero hayas pasado tu mejor vida conmigo y te hayas sentido tan especial como lo fuiste. Gracias a la vida por habernos permitido coincidir, porque tú amor me cambio, te amo mi chiquita.
To be honest while I was writing this post I had to take many breaks because I started crying and I never expected to go through this so soon, in my mind we had many years together, many important dates to share and above all much love to give us, it is hard to accept that now we will no longer celebrate birthdays together, or Christmas, or new year, but I hope you have spent your best life with me and you have felt as special as you were. Thanks to life for allowing us to coincide, because your love changed me, I love you my little girl.
I hope I was to you what Nathan was to Bailey, you will always be in my heart.
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