Let Me Live Guilty

Why do I feel like I'm faced with a judge who's bent on taking me to jail for being guilty and I'm trying so hard to explain how less guilty I am? Or am I really being judged right now?

There's a thing called less guilty right? I want to believe that.

Well, I am living both guilty and free but let's get to know how less guilty I am. But I'm not sharing them here so I can get advices to change or maybe I am. I do know for sure that they are not good for me but I can't help it, it's not like they will kill me immediately I do them so you won't blame me.


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I'm a sweet tooth, sugar is my best friend and I've got a strong hate feeling towards anything near bitter or not sweet. I've taken too much sugar to the extent that it's no longer hidden.

Before now, I would add a cube of sugar to my meal in the presence of everyone at home but that is after I added two cubes in hiding 😅 I'm sure you get what I mean. I knew I was wrong doing that but the sweeter the pleasure, the more I continued doing it.

Now, my family knows how badly I abuse sugar and they won't stop talking and warning me about it's danger... How do I stop what gives me so much pleasure? I'm still trying to figure that out.

Aside the possibility of applying for diabetes or growing fat, this guilty pleasure of mine makes me fall sick and feel so much pain during my monthly flow (women problem) but I still don't get it. I rely on taking drugs or not doing any hard work during those times than stop taking sugars.

Hold up! Don't give me that look, I'm enjoying my pleasure and I will try to change (Will I ever?) you can help me wonder about that.

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I hate exercises!!! Yes, I'm screaming but seriously, should someone who takes too much sugar hate exercise? Well, you found one and before you say it, I know I'm putting my life at risk by not doing exercises.

I like my comfort a lot, eat a lot (sweet meals of course), lie down or sleep off, wake up to press my phone or watch movies... No trial on working out or taking a stroll to let out some sugar.

Those are stress to me and not pleasurable at all. The last time I tried exercising my body after eating too much, I almost fainted... I'm not trying that again 😅 did you say something?

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Watching TV closely, pressing my phones with bright lights and sleeping in bright rooms is one of my favourite kind of things until it started giving me eye problems. I would get sharp pains when I see bright lights anytime I wake up... It's more than what I can write but still, I enjoy doing it.

I think this pleasure of mine won't last long for me, I can give it up a bit easily than my intake of sugar.

Thanks to this pleasure, my eyes aches a lot but it aches less when I try hard not to go near too bright lights... I'm still trying.


I know there are many more things I enjoy doing but are not healthy for me, maybe I would share them later when I remember them or do them again... For now, these are the pleasures I am found guilty and I know it but I think I can explain to the judge better.

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If I was the judge ehh, I go put you for quarantine against sugar for the next two months, after then, your head will calm down small and you will reduce it. You've gone too far in taking that sugar, but maybe if you really want to be serious on stopping it, you might, but under the condition of seriousness

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I'm still looking for that seriousness 😌
You must be a really scary judge 😒

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😂😂😂😂
I'm not scary oo, I'm only caring, you must be a beautiful girl and you will not like to spoil your future with your present, I think you get were I am going to...

Like I said before, just take care of yourself...

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You and this your sugar, I'm beginning to feel scared for you. Please 🙏 work on it, if not the result will not be nice at all.

I know I'm sounding just like your family members at home now !lol

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😂😂😂😂
Yeah, you are
But I'll try to
Thanks

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There are a couple of us that like sweet stuff and we all know that we shouldn't indulge, but I reckon that it's ok if in moderation. I don't really exercise but I spend a lot of time cleaning up after my daughter and that's actually quite a work out lol. It doesn't feel like exercising so that's at least a bonus. 😁

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Sugar mama🤣 Your sugar consumption rate is too much and the adverse effect might be beyond having painful cramps and all. Unless you are daily exercising your body to burn out, it is advisable not to consume that much sugar. Even gym instructors warn against it too.

I also enjoy sweet food too and even when I don't take it much I still see the effect and I am deliberately working on reducing them if not avoiding them completely.

So please for the sake of your amazing future, reduce your sugar intake to avoid complications later.

Also, like my friend- a gym instructor would always tell me. He says that having a purpose in mind before engaging in exercise routine is important. It helps prepare the body ahead and gives that will power. So whats your motive for exercising?

As per the other ones...na person wey get too much money like you dey enjoy life like dis. Iffa say make you show me the way now you no go gree😫 diaris God sha🤣🤣

Beautiful post dear and hope you don't mind the new nickname "Sugar mama"🤣🤣

Much love😍

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I mind o, I'm not sugar mama na 😂 don't announce it too much that I like sugar, I will soon change.

Well, I got your advice... I'll work on my sugar intake and try exercising someday 😌

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Adding sugar to your meals, well darn I have never heard of anyone doing that Merit!
Be careful with that though, I have a sweet though so won't judge you🤣

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Hahaha not all kinds of meals though, there are some meals that need sugar to taste better 😂

Thanks for not judging mate Tengo 😅

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