Careless Acts

Being dependent on painkillers is really concerning. I have always tried to take them as minimally as possible, not like what the doctor has prescribed and I am not following them. It's like, I haven’t created any situation so bad that it requires me to go that way.

But yeah, when I do look at the corner of my table, I do see lots of medicines to digest, to take regularly. This is not what I had expected.

I do believe that mental health and physical health are synced together. If one gets damaged then the other suffers too, especially the damage to the mental health affects us the most. Right now, my problems started for them mental ones, leading to physical sickness.

Come on, severe headaches on a daily basis wasn’t my thing. I have just seen these changes ever since I am struggling in my mind with different reasons. You know what, mental peace should be labeled as the most precious thing in the world. No matter how you are acquiring it, you just need to stay satisfied and feel the inner peace. These don't require any monetary value of how much to acquire to have them, they come everywhere.

This is proven that peace is found even with the smallest gesture of humans, or it may not be present in the royal palaces as well. It's just dependent on the person and his activities. Speaking of myself, I am not a saint either. My peace has been gone due to many reasons, I do blame money for some reasons but there are some mistakes to be placed before that and do the justice. But those are not worth thinking about right now as they can't be undone nor left unchecked.

Among all the dramas, there has been a new drama that has started. I got my final exam routine but with very short gaps to take preparation, not enough to prepare ourselves. It was so no-brainer that the authorities had to take it down and publish a new one within a few hours. This time, a little better but still their madness has left some strains. The corrected one, has given little more gaps but the two hardest ones are unchanged. I was like, wtf they take daily, were they on weeds?

Nothing to do, and no protest will be sufficient enough to make any more changes as to them this is nothing, just a regular exam that they are planning to take, the end of their responsibility.

I just hate the mindset of fulfilling responsibilities as if they are a burden on ourselves. They just want to get rid of it anyhow, without even judging the effects of their behavior.

So yeah, by accumulating everything, things have been going harsh, pretty bad actually.