I'm so tired of thinking about what to write and what kind of content to write next. I hate to admit but there are just those times I want to write but nothing comes to mind. I just love to write something so whatever it will be I just want to write it. There is no one I can talk to about what I'm thinking right now so all I can do is write it as if someone is listening.

So - Hello to you. I don't know what you've been through as of this moment. Of course, our situation is not the same. However, if you are like me, you are suffering to make a living. Continue what you are doing, you just want to have an amazing life in the future. Ignore the people around you and focus on your goals. Sometimes it will be blurry and sometimes even worse but do not falter. They are just challenges to feel sweeter when you finally achieve them.

I am smiling right now while writing. Remember that I am all alone sitting in my small cart next to the road. People for sure might think I'm going crazy. Well, it's fine, it's normal for other people to think like that. Some people are easier to judge instead of knowing why. They didn't know for sure that while I'm writing this now I just feel relieved and that makes me happy. I feel that way because I chose it to be that way - who cares.

The surroundings are so bright. The light of the sun is blinding me. My body is feeling hot, summer is coming. When this season comes I can feel happier. I don't know why even though there are so many things I need to worry about. I don't have enough money for my wedding. I've been desperate sometimes but the more I keep thinking about it over and over again no solution comes. The bad effect is that it hurts my thoughts and drowns me. That's why I just want to let it go and feel like a free man. I believe that solutions will come in time as long as I will not let myself be stuck on not doing anything about it.

Hmmm - I love this sad music. As if the weather is tagging along with its melody. The blow of cold wind despite the hot weather makes the presence lonelier. I like this feeling. I want to feel it more and more until all my emotions are quenched and nothing is left. I just want to let it flow like a river that flows whenever it will. No stress, no worrying, and no escaping. If it hurts, it hurts. Why think of avoiding it when there's no escape from it?

Oh, I'm just resting. I'm looking around. I'm taking a pause before continuing. The blow of the wind gets stronger. I feel like I'm starting to be out of words. My mind is like telling me that I'm satisfied that I wrote something. It's almost thinking about what to write even though there were no clearer words that would come. At last, for now, this might be random but it feels satisfying. But this music I'm listening to right now is so beautiful that won't let me stop writing.

Now I don't know how to end this with a proper one. Well, I don't think there is since from the beginning this is just about to be free. Perhaps it will end when I decide not to write. I will just stop because I think there is nothing to think about. 🙂

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ABOUT ME

_{Paul is the name but prefers to be called mrnightmare that feels like living in the dream. A country boy and a dreamboy (dreamer) who likes to stay in a small village even though it means abandoning the future to become a seaman. The passion is writing but not sailing in the vast ocean. Don't wonder if the face will not be shown, this is better where the words can flow smoothly. Come, you can tell me your stories and I'll tell you mine. Together, let's explore the world by broadening our thoughts. If you need a shoulder I can lean you mine and I hope I can lean yours. The world is fun when living is not being alone but with someone.}

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