Missing Her

It's not like a letter that the words can be written. It's not like a movie that can be viewed. It's a feeling of my emotions that I don't know how to put into words. The sudden sadness without thinking why it rubs my thoughts of memories with her. It's not my intention because I know it will just make me lonely. Even though I suppress it from happening. There's no way in my deepest desire to handle it.

I miss her like it was last year. I longed for her touch, her smile, and her way of making me happy. Our relationship from the very beginning was distant from each other. Sometimes I wonder why she lives far away when I want her to be with me all the time. It hurts me, in fact, it crucified my heart knowing that this is the reality. I may not accept it or refuse to have this kind of situation. I have no choice but to endure because I want nothing but only her in my life.

Days passed without her turning to be longer. The night not dreaming her seems shorter. Don't think I'm going crazy because of her. Just making some imagination while she's not here with me at the moment. I should not let myself devour with loneliness or else I will just make her worried. Though for others these are just idle words. I can't blame them because this is not them who feels like missing someone deeply.

I know my night will end again of not seeing her. My day for tomorrow will not be with her. I practiced myself to persevere because I have dreams, she has hers. It will not be for long and I know someday we will both share the same dreams. We will see the same sky and we will breathe the same air. But for now, let me miss you and let me recall the sweet memories we had. I will be holding it for now until we will make another.

Thank you for reading

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d' dreamboy,
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