Clawing My Way To The Light
Sometimes I wish I am not who I am because honestly, if you were to be me for a day you might run mad. Being an over-thinker, depression has grown to be an everyday thing for me.
Before, I didn’t even know the word depression, what it meant or even how it happened. I would just start to overthink and with time, I get moody and gradually I get lost in my own thoughts and it’s a whole mess. Sometimes it all happens before I even know what’s going on. At the end, all I can do is wallow in misery.
Depression is real and trust me when I tell you it’s something you wouldn’t wish on anyone. I have been battling depression for literally my whole life. Sometimes I wonder what went wrong but I never seem to understand what happened. A few days ago, someone asked me if I don’t miss schooling, the school environment and all of that. My answer was no and they were surprised. The whole point wasn’t that I should check up on my friends who stay with their parents because apparently, they are those battling depression the most.
I could really relate to that and I agree to it because way back in the university, I used to get depressed on campus but it wasn’t that serious as compared to when I went back home during vacations. I would have a lot of house chores and kids to baby sit. So many errands to run, siblings and parents getting on your nerves , you name it. It’s like your life just changed within a twinkle of an eye. Then there are those days that there’s no one at home. All your friends are busy with their own stuff and you’re left all alone in a big house with your thoughts. Even though there’s so much comfort as compared to when you were on campus, someway somehow, you fall victim to depression.
There are so many things that can trigger depression. For some of us, it runs in our family, for others it’s due to their personality, loneliness, stress and many more. Depression can rise from even the little things you pay no attention to. I can’t even count how long I’ve been battling depression until I found ways and means to get a hold of my life.
As someone with a degree in depression, here are a few tips to make your life depression-free.
Be active and keep yourself busy all the time.
As they say, the devil finds work for the idle and that’s what happens to many of us. Having so much free time on your hands can make your mind
wander to places you don’t want to. In that moment, you find trouble for yourself by coming up with anything that would get you to worry or make you moody. Gradually, you find yourself falling into the pit of depression.
Have a routine
Having a daily routine has so many advantages than we realize. Imagine waking up from bed and not even knowing what you’re going to do for the day. At the end of the day, you realize your day hasn’t been as productive as you expect. When it comes to having a routine, once you’re up from bed, you know what’s next for you and it continues for the rest of the day. This way, you have things to do at all times and at the end of the day you realize your day has been productive.
Seek help
It’s okay to ask for help sometimes. No one is perfect and that’s okay. As humans, we are there to help one another in difficult times. Sometimes I tell my friend @yahuzah that I’m depressed and he’s like ‘why are you depressed?’. If I knew why I was depressed I wouldn’t be telling him.😂
Most at times people might not be able to understand you at the beginning but with time, they are able to help you in one way or the other. The best way to avoid depression is to seek professional help. I haven’t had the chance to get that, but I still get help from the people around me.
I wouldn’t say I have been able to fully do away with depression but I have improved drastically over that past two years. It doesn’t take a day to manage depression, it takes time so don’t be hard on yourself. Go at your own pace and you’d be fine at the end of the day.
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Okay this came with a little shock
I never saw this coming
I’m sorry you have to go through this.
Have you ever thought of seeking professional help?
Not the one that @yahuzah will ask why you’re depressed o😂
😂😂it’s money that brings professional help. I’m working on it though.
Oh alright
😂 oh professional therapist like me.
I’m her professional help. I’m @nhaji01’s therapist just that she doesn’t respect 😂.
🤣🤣🤣
My friend carry yourself and sit somewhere
Depression isn’t a good thing. I have seen it tear down the might ones, but I’m glad you got it under control.
I’m trying my best.😅
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You're raging at something,someone. Then you'd ask yourself, "Why am I angry?" cause you have no idea what's going on. Everywhere seems blurry cause your eyes are watering and you don't even know why you're crying. The whole house/hostel is quiet and you're awake by 2AM thinking about what went wrong in your life,then you drift,you remember all the mistakes and foolish things you've done in your life. You're sad now, listening to sad songs isn't helping either but it's comforting atleast so you continue listening to it as tears run down your face. Depression is shit. You'll be fine @nhaji01
It’s an endless cycle of loosing your mind. The best way is to try and get a grip of your life.
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People most of the times don't know how to deal with people needing help. They aren't joking or pretending that they are sick. It is something that it is really affecting them!
Good that you kney when you needed help =) It is an important first step.
Someone people haven’t experienced depression before so they find it hard when it comes to dealing with people battling it.
With time, they learn more and more and finally they get to be able to help in one way or the other.
I’m glad and very happy you’re much better now and handle this better. Sorry I’m not too much of a help during those times but I do help a bit right?😂
Depression is bad and I hope everyone is able to handle it.
You don’t help. You just say ‘ why are you depressed’ instead of asking ‘oh, do you need money.😂😂’
Of a truth anyone can be depressed. Good you have developed ways to care for yourself. Talking to someone is a good way to handle depression too. A times when you think on what you want to do and how to achieve it and it turns the other way round, depression will knock.. please no dey think so much oo
Sometimes even being alone for too long can lead to depression. Everyone should make it a point to interact with others so they can release some steam
Depression creeps in without us even knowing sometimes. Many people have misinterpreted depression as being moody or just sad, and that's mostly because there's a very thin line between these emotions or state of mind. You've given very wonderful tips on how to prevent depression, and I can totally relate to the"having a routine" part, it helps to keep the mind focused on specific goals daily
We Africans don’t really pay attention to such stuff. All we say is, it’s just ladies stuff and all of that and before realize it’s too late
Depression is a slow killer, it takes time before it strikes the killing blow.
I agree with you, it happens little by little then, boom!
Actually, I feel we the younger generation are more enlightened about these things and find better ways to deal with them. Same way majority of us are going through it and unable to get out of it
I listened to a podcast last year, a lady was talking about her mom and how she was suffering from depression and they didn’t even know. She was so outgoing and you would never imagine. A series of things happened, she tried to end it all by jumping down from a building. Long story short, she eventually died and it makes me often think about what our parents go through and can’t even talk about it
Sometimes these old people don’t even know there’s something wrong with them. They would just assume it’s menopause until everything gets worse. It is well.