A pencil

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Today, I buy a pencil from the same old grocery store near my house. From the pencil bucket, I choose the red one, with a rubber cap on its head.

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I wanna pen down, what is necessary for my life to live, to flourish, to free from every barrier. It sounds like the philosophy of Gautama Siddhartha the Buddha but I want the same.

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Some needs are abstract, some are institutional, but the majority of portion lies in physical substances. Eyes never lie, mate.!

Oh! my dear God, I need a cellphone. It’s like more than necessity. I feel its absence whenever I was standing alone, or just to veil myself from others in a crowd. It feels I’ve totally become the slave of the gadgets without which I can’t imagine my existence.

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I wanna fuck a woman, a sexy woman for sure. A complete sex with an exuberance of love and compassion and ended up with a fat, healthy orgasm. o dear! Licking her boobs, fore-playing with her all day long, and dive in the sweet smell of her is also on my list…

Oh! God, I need money, a lot of it. free from poverty. Need a fancy car, a fancy house, and a suitable social status. I need that. I need that very much.

Gimme a break, break from everything. Every fucking thing that leads me to struggle; but alas! I don’t have any.
So I ask my sweet God to give the habit of adaptability, with that I may survive without a cellphone. Readying the same old book page may give me more pleasure. Finding happiness from the small portion of life is also my necessity

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I am praying to you to give a desire free life, yeah I want that too. Wanna free from every desire I have. From fucking a woman to taking marijuana. wanna be a complete human being. With the consciousness, exploring the cosmos, and many more. As the saying goes if you are a part of this whole wide universe, you may have the knowledge of our existence. Being a part of a bigger entity means you are wired.

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And there goes another wish, greed free life. Sometimes It perishes me from the Inside. In America, there was a culture called the slave culture. At that time black people are treated as slaves. They have no right to protest against their master, they had no voting power either. Nelson Mandela, the South African who protest against this culture for a long time and then finally succeeded. But today's era, every person is bound to kneel down to this entity. This is money! Oh, money. Each and every aspect of life we need money to survive. I called it as valuable as oxygen. In this polluted world If you wanna have clean air filled with your room you need a humidifier that’ll cost money too. So I pray to God is to make me capable at this height that money will not a concern for me. I can spend easily a thousand bucks just to fill my necessity as well as helping others.

A life philosophy is not the just thing that you pen down to write in a diary and happened overnight. It takes time; best is, take time….