Beautiful and Sublime Sunday Nov 13, 2022 - How I Calm Down My Feeling?
Today is Sunday and I woke up earlier. I found myself crying, just like I was dreaming. At 4:30am, tears were falling from my eyes. It was unstoppable. I didn't control and it took until 7am. I want to remember what was going on and there is no clear vision. But I felt something what hurted me last few days ago. Instead of getting weak, I tried to fight back the feeling,though my tears was still there. Why I felt like this? Many question arises but I must be strong.
I went outside and saw the beauty of the surrounding. I play the kittens, I watered the plant and picked some flowers.
The bougainvillea are blooming with different color of the flowers.
I found a lighter feelings in my heart. I drank a lot of water and I ignored coffee and chocolate. How many glass of water I drank and released the bad feelings inside my heart.
I saw the mango tree with many nest hanging there on the top part of the tree between the leaves.
I picked some flowers and the fragrance scattered everywhere in the playground.
They released some pain within me. At least I smile before the end of the day and feel the beautiful and sublime Sunday.
Everytime I felt something different, rooptop is the best place for me to abode. I love the wind blows and its freshness from the southern part sea side and mountains in the fareast distant land.
This is the sunset and the darkness of the night at this moment we see right now will steal the light of the day.
I feel the calmness of the night. Hopefully, the bad feeling that I have now will be buried and goes down like the sun lost its light today while waiting for the new one for tomorrow.
While making this post, I am waiting for the moon to shine.
The moon in my life tonight. Speechless how to decribe it. Only God knows my longing today, tonight and tomorrow.