[ESP/ENG] Hace mucho tiempo no estoy bien/ I have not been well for a long time

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No sé especificar en que momento empezó a suceder; creo que no podemos darnos cuenta de cómo las cosas nos van a cambiar. Siempre he sido sensible a mis emociones, siempre he estado en un espiral de sentimientos; pero desde hace unos pocos meses me he sentido empeorar.

Cuando pensé que ya había superado todos mis miedos e inseguridades, llega otra nueva ola de sentimientos. Desde hace unos pocos meses, lloro sin sentido, me deprimo mucho y me estresa pensar en salir de casa. He aumentado de peso, tengo hambre a todas horas, no me está gustando mi cuerpo. He estado en un tiempo de desesperación que ya no se cómo superar. Siempre hay algo, siempre llega algo nuevo.

I don't know to specify at what point it started to happen; I think we can't realize how things will change us. I have always been sensitive to my emotions, I have always been in a spiral of feelings; but since a few months ago I have felt myself getting worse.

Just when I thought I had overcome all my fears and insecurities, along comes another new wave of feelings. For the past few months, I have been crying senselessly, getting very depressed and stressed at the thought of leaving the house. I have gained weight, I am hungry all the time, I am not liking my body. I have been in a time of despair that I no longer know how to overcome. There is always something, something new is always coming.

Me siento sola, prácticamente no tengo amigos y los poco que he tenido los he dejado ir. No me siento cómoda respondiendo mensajes de WhatsApp y generalmente los dejo acumular para luego simplemente eliminarlos; pienso las cosas dos y tres veces antes de hacerlas, no me atrevo a probar nada nuevo. Me dan miedo las actividades grupales y salir de paseo con algunas personas no es mi fuerte.

Siento que estoy dejando pasar mi vida como si no fuera importante, siento que estoy desaprovechando muchas oportunidades y que he dejado perder muchos trenes.

I feel lonely, I have practically no friends and the few I have had I have let them go. I don't feel comfortable answering WhatsApp messages and I usually let them pile up and then just delete them; I think things twice and three times before doing them, I don't dare to try anything new. I dread group activities and going out for a walk with some people is not my forte.

I feel that I am letting my life pass me by as if it is not important, I feel that I am missing many opportunities and that I have missed many trains.

En lo único que logro distraerme es leyendo, aunque luego me sienta culpable porque he perdido mucho tiempo haciéndolo.

Tomo muchas decisiones a la ligera y siempre me arrepiento de hacerlo.

No estoy siendo feliz. Y no se que hacer para remediarlo, así que cualquiera de sus consejos será bueno para mí. Recibiré sus palabras, con la intención de mejorar todo lo que me está haciendo tanto daño.

The only thing I manage to distract myself is reading, even though I feel guilty afterwards because I have wasted so much time doing it.

I make a lot of decisions lightly and I always regret doing so.

I am not being happy. And I don't know what to do about it, so any of your advice will be good for me. I will welcome your words, with the intention of improving everything that is hurting me so much.

Esta publicación está en español e inglés, con la finalidad de poder obtener muchos más consejos de los que tendría con un solo idioma.

This publication is in Spanish and English, in order to be able to obtain much more advice than you would have with only one language.

Texto traducido en DeepL

Text translated at DeepL

Ilustración hecha por mi.

Illustration made by me.



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