EN/UA День народження в темряві | Birthday in the dark


Всім привіт друзі, я ледве знаходжу в собі сили щоб щось робити, чимось себе відволікти, бо сумно. Чоловік тільки поїхав, ось сьогодні о шостій ранку, а я вже сумую і не знаю куди подіти себе. Куди подіти свою тривогу, свої думки, в який би плінтус залізти... Хочеться сховатися від всього світу і вийти коли закінчиться війна. Чоловік поїхав туди, не хочу навіть писати це слово. А ось ця невідомість саме більше бентежить бо що там далі... Шукаю п'ятий кут у квартирі і не можу знайти. Куди не глянь все про нього нагадує, ось його одеколон, ось його часи, а ось недопалки від сигарет... Все буде добре, я в це всім сердцем вірю, але ось ця недомовленність не дає спокою.

Другого листопада чоловік поїхав у військомат, а третього у мене було день народження. Він приїхав і каже, що його відправляють на Дніпро, сумка на поготові, ми збігали купили павербанк, зробили фотографії три на чотири і... Яке там день народження, у мене немає настрою, одна істерика. Але все ж таки я взяла себе в руки, приготувала стіл, спекла навіть торт. Прийшли до нас куми, та ми трохи посиділи. Романтика, бо як тільки прийшли куми зникло світло! Ні світла, ні зв'язку, бо і інтернет і зв'язок зник. Сидимо як пещерні люди, увімкнули ліхтарик, а свята не виходить бо тільки й розмови про цих довбаних росіян, про війну, про те що на ранок треба готуватися до виїзду.

Наступний день промайнув як година, швидко і ось сьогодні чоловік поїхав, а я чекаю новин, аби не зійти з розуму від всієї цієї невідомості. Можливо воно не так страшно як ми самі собі про це думаємо, але ж якби не ця війна все було б по іншому. Тож я шукаю в собі сили, відволікаюся, та чекаю на новини від чоловіка. До речі, пишу поки є світло та інтернет зв'язок, бо у нас з цим великі проблеми.


Hello friends, I can barely find the strength to do something, to distract myself, because it's sad. My husband just left, it's six in the morning today, and I'm already sad and don't know where to put myself. Where to put your anxiety, your thoughts, which plinth to climb into... I want to hide from the whole world and come out when the war is over. My husband went there, I don't even want to write this word. But this unknown is more confusing, because what's next... I'm looking for the fifth corner in the apartment and I can't find it. Everywhere you look, everything reminds you of him, here is his cologne, here are his times, and here are cigarette butts... Everything will be fine, I believe in it with all my heart, but this inconsistency does not give me peace.

On the second of November, my husband went to the military, and on the third I was too lazy to give birth. He arrived and says that he is being sent to the Dnipro, his bag is ready, we rushed to buy a power bank, took three by four photos and... What a birthday, I'm not in the mood, one tantrum. But still, I pulled myself together, prepared the table, even baked a cake. The best men came to us, and we sat for a while. Romance, because as soon as the best men arrived, the lights went out! No light, no connection, because both the Internet and the connection disappeared. We sit like cavemen, turned on the flashlight, and the holiday does not come out, because there are only conversations about these stupid Russians, about the war, about the fact that in the morning we need to prepare for departure.

The next day flew by like an hour, quickly, and today my husband left, and I'm waiting for news so as not to go crazy from all this unknownness. Maybe it's not as scary as we think about it, but if it wasn't for this war, everything would be different. So I look for strength in myself, distract myself, and wait for news from my husband. By the way, I am writing while there is light and Internet connection, because we have big problems with this.


Бажаю вам сил та витримки у цей нелегкий і тривожний для всіх час. Здоров'я вам і вашому чоловікові. Нехай у вас обох все буде добре.


Моя дівчинка! Хай наступний День народження буде в мирній Україні разом з коханим чоловіком!


Send him to get killed by Russian artillery.

Actual Cannon fodder:



Machine translation: The 93rd brigade of the Armed Forces of Ukraine is in Soledar. Constantly bears losses. When they asked for fire support, their artillery hit them.

They refused to stand in positions. For this, their commanders gave the order to disarm them and leave them in the trenches, and to shoot them for leaving, adding to them that they would come out of there only two hundredth (killed). The failed defenders decided to make public the severity of their situation by recording this video.

Go to the link, read the comments, too chicken shit to investigate?

Link to video/comments.

Ukranian soldier: "They throw us like meat."
Machine translation: "Yesterday I talked to my friends from the front, he says that the Russians have unrealistically strengthened themselves near Kherson, as they do not go to them, they get slapped all the time. 200 and we have a lot. The number of wounded is simply incredible. All the hospitals of Nikolaev are also full and are being taken to other cities. They throw us like meat. Those on the front were mobilized, actively discussing to surrender to the Russians immediately. Well, like, then they will exchange. And according to rumors, 50 people have already crossed over to the other side. One even managed to write to his mother to say that everything was fine. He also told me that his colleague was wounded and he was lying in our first hospital on the Ekipazhnoy. It was a shrapnel wound and the soldiers forbade doctors to register it as a combat wound. To hide the real number of victims and all sorts of benefits so that they would not be paid there. Here, they will be issued as a household and that's it."


Ukrainian soldiers complain about being 'cannon meat' and refuse to go to the front line
Fighters of the Ukrainian armed forces continue issuing appeals about the disastrous situation at the frontPersonnel of the 24th AFU Brigade complain that they are being thrown "to the meat" with machine guns in their hands against tanks, artillery and aircraft, as well as how they are being hit by the Russian army. Because of this, Ukrainian servicemen refused to perform their duties as part of the units of the 24th Brigade.

Encircled Ukrainian soldiers complain about being abandoned like cannon fodder in Lysychansk


AFU Conscript Refused To Fight And Was Shot In Legs - Russian Medics Picked Him Up
"An AFU conscript refused to fight and was shot in the legs. Russian fighters picked him up and sent for medical treatment."


Ukrainian soldiers refuse to fight and surrender their weapons
Machine translation: The UAF soldiers from the 1st rifle battalion of the 1st company, who refused to participate in hostilities as part of the 24 brigade, voluntarily surrendered their weapons.

WHERE IS THE MONEY, ZELENSKY??? Another group of soldiers complain about being stiffed
Machine translation: Another Ukrainian soldiers complain to Mr. Zelensky that they don't receive their entitlementsThe allowances are not paid, and most of them even according to the documents are somewhere in the rear, although the soldiers at this moment are on the front line. You're complaining to the wrong person, Mr. President is the first to have a hand in this.

ZH: EVERYTHING is COLAPSING in Ukraine: Soldiers of the 115th Brigade in Severodonetsk complain too

Two Ukrainian POWs refuse to be exchanged and are applying for Russian citizenship instead

Catch 22: Soldiers of the 57th AFU brigade refuse to go to the front line; Commander doesn't either
They have literally zero chance of winning and a small chance of surviving and coming back.Machine translation: The Ukrainian battalion commander is trying unsuccessfully to persuade the fighters to go to war, but he himself does not want to go with them. "Then I don't give a shit... on you," sums up the commander.

AFU POW's Appeal To DPR Chairman To Let Them Join Russian Army
Historical footage.

Former AFU soldiers appeal to the chairman of the DNR People's Council to take them into Russian service.😁

Eng translation of Ukrainian 57th Motorized Brigade arguing with their commander and refusing to go
Another video with refuseniks of the Armed Forces of Ukraine, this time the 57th Motorized Brigade.

Everything is as usual: the command are idiots, there are no heavy weapons, soldiers ask why they are being treated as numbers that can be replaced. Officers are in the rear and soldiers demand they be at the front line with them.

Ukrainian soldiers refusing to follow suicidal order - deploy to positions surrendered 2 weeks prior

Ukrainians of 36th Separate Marine Brigade complain that officers beat their comrade to death

Ukrainian soldiers from Avdeevka front line complain about their situation
Machine translation: "We were performing combat tasks near Avdeevka settlement, we were in zero position illegally. During the entire time we lost 70% of our personnel (on the footage all those who survived). When we expressed our distrust to the battalion command about the fact that there was a verbal order to occupy and hold positions without heavy equipment and artillery, only with machine guns and four magazines. The road to the positions and the position is regularly shot through with mortars, cluster mines and so on by the Russian military. There is no logistics, communication, and cohesion between units.

They send them to the front line without reference to the terrain. No basic means of communication are provided. Officers, commanders, medics were not with us at the positions. There was no proper evacuation of the wounded, they waited 12 hours or more for help. The dead were not taken away. No one was looking for the missing, they were not even interested in them. No one supplied water or food to the positions. We repeatedly appealed to the battalion command about providing us with proper weapons to repel enemy attacks, but we were ignored. On 25.05.2022 our helmets, flak jackets and weapons were taken from us at the front line, namely in the village of Umanska. We stayed there without protection until 30.05.2022. Also we were not paid our pay and bonus for direct participation in combat operations. We were transferred to another unit without our consent to the security company of the third division of the Melitopol rpc and sep. And our command wants to turn us into deserters. Despite the fact that we want to go into battle to defend our country. The Zaporizhzhya regional military enlistment office knows that Colonel Khobot is turning Ukraine's defenders into diserters. And instead of stopping, on the contrary hides this crime. We appeal to everyone who cares to help us overcome this lawlessness and once again stand up for the Ukrainian people and state".

MORE Ukies Refuse to Fight!
Next appeal. This time from Severodonetsk. They refuse to go into position, as there is no support, and the command gives inadequate orders.

Another Battalion Mutinies - Refuse To Fight For Dying Ukraine (Subtitled)

Units of the Cherkasy Territorial Defense forces refuse to fight and recorded a video message to the
Units of the Cherkasy Territorial Defense forces refuse to fight and recorded a video message to the commander in chief.

Ukrainian wives say their husbands refuse to return to front lines
Machine translation:"There are a lot of dead bodies, people ran wherever they could! Our husbands are sent to be shot" - the wife of a Ukrainian soldier exposes Arestovich's victory speeches, telling about the real situation at the front. According to her, the military unit her husband serves in refuses to return to the front lines.

The military man's mother adds that "they want to destroy the Volyn cops".

MORE Ukrainian soldiers at the front REFUSE to fight!
Soldiers at the front refuse to fight
This time, the platoon of the 3rd battalion of the 115th Brigade of the AFU refused to defend Severodonetsk, recording an appeal to Zelensky and the commander-in-chief of the AFU Zaluzhny :
"We refuse to carry out combat missions because we do not have reinforcements from behind. No heavy machinery. We have been waiting for reinforcements for 2 weeks, but there is no one. We are being sent to certain death. There is no command. There is no technique and respect for people. ... in such conditions, we refuse to perform combat mission

Foreign / American Mercenaries Flee In Panic And Disarray Somewhere In Ukraine
Word has it that more and more, foreign mercenaries are starting to 'clash' with AFU command who requires them to do suicidal tasks which the mercenary groups refuse to do. One recent incident even alleged a firefight erupted where the foreign mercenaries liquidated the AFU troops who were trying to strongarm them into a suicidal assault.

Ukrainian tanker POW talks about how Ukraine sends people into the meat grinder
A captured Ukrainian tank soldier told how AFU command sends unprepared mobilised servicemen to slaughter

A Ukrainian soldier was seized by Russian airborne unit near Kherson region in attempt to attack Russian Armed Forces’ positions.

AFU Unit Describes Command Ordering Them To Shoot Every Civilian In Town And Their Own Wounded
◾️ Ukrainian unit describes how their command ordered them to shoot every civilian on sight and left the town in ruins.

◾️ Ukraine soldiers where order to shoot their own wounded colleagues ( yes, the Ukrainian command gave the order to not evacuate their own wounded men but to kill them).

◾️Going into the village - shoot everyone: such an order was received by the Ukrainian military from the 25th brigade of the Armed Forces of Ukraine during one of the battles. According to them, they killed civilians, even women and children, threw grenades into cellars where people were hiding.

◾️But they decided to talk about these atrocities only because their commanders left them on the front line and ordered to finish off their wounded colleagues so as not to organize an evacuation.

“We refuse to carry out criminal orders” - Ukrainian servicemen say after a failed offensive


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Все буде добре, головне - без паніки. Те, що Ви відчуваєте - це природна реакція на стрес і невідомість, і це нормально. Я кажу, а сама добре пам'ятаю, як не знаходила собі місця і сил в лютому, березні, і кожного разу, коли його то туди, то сюди.
Тримайтесь. Не знаю, як, у кожного щось своє - зарядка, книги, чай, друзі, фільми, прогулянки. Я печу, коли нервуюсь ) Завжди допомагає.
Обіймаю! 🤗❤️


Ой і я печу коли дах їде. Але останнім часом така кльоцка вийшла. То я шию ікони тепер. Теж заспокоює. Дякую велике.


Костя молодець, сміливець. Герой.
Хай у вас обох буде багато сили для взаємопідтримки одне одного