Loss of hope is worse than dying.

Yesterday, I felt caged in the labyrinth of hopelessness with a flameless candle.

Perhaps there is a cure for anything except for death, and this is one thing that I cannot handle in life.

After I have experienced death of a loved one, somehow I was losing a sense of purpose, and the worst, it led to loss of hope, making me hopeless for a month when my sister died tragically.

My life was once frustratingly unknowable.

Even now, the memory is vividly clear. I was shocked and in trauma during and after the incident. And it was very hard for me to understand and accept everything.

Personally, I experienced losing hope and it was never easy.

At a young age, I was full of hope and optimism. Despite the downsides of life, never did I think of giving up nor quitting on any aspect.

But then, after experiencing the worst, I admit that I became hopeless.

I was like a flameless candle caged in a labyrinth of hopelessness with my weakest self.

Once in my life, I was full of enthusiasm and optimism.

I was once cheerful, enthusiastic, and hopeful, but in a blink of time, I was in low spirits in queer street.

I was thinking that I would be better off dead, her death was crippling me with so much pain and full of guilts every single day. Perhaps I was very hopeless while losing a sense of purpose to move forward.

There was one time when I talked with somebody and expressed to her my personal views about life after my sister died.

Out of nowhere, I was eloquently assertive about death and life while relating it to my personal and my sister’s experiences, not to mention that since we were young, we were both dreamers and ambitious just because we were not born with a silver spoon in our mouth. And that, we are consistently doing our best just to achieve our dreams and goals.

I paused for a while, and reflected about how tough life is. The saddest truth is that, her dreams also died with her.

I cried an ocean of tears because I really knew how persistent and consistent she was back then. We have both dreams for each other, and we were both hard working for we have so many plans for our parents and for our extended family.

Needless to say, she was so intelligent with a lot of achievements both in her personal and professional life. She is beautiful with a heart. And she must have been somebody in the future who could contribute a positive impact in the society, yet on that very moment, her last breath caused so much sorrow and despair, making me very hopeless about life.

Meanwhile, I realized that no matter how we hustle hard all throughout our existence just to achieve whatever the desires of our hearts, we are all clueless about life. Whether we like it or not, everything has an end, and we will not know when.

Death stopped everything and it made me hopeless…

Through a worst experience, I once knew how it feels like to be hopeless. I felt insane for a while and I was like a weakest bird that is flying without a direction on a stormy day.

My heart was crushed into bits with so much wounds and scars of yesterday. My soul was caged eternally in the labyrinth of hopelessness.

While I am still alive, I admit that loss of hope is worse than dying for I was losing a sense of purpose and I was losing my dignity.

When we become hopeless, we do not care about what is going on. We do not care about the future, and we feel so numb about everything.

I firmly believe that hope is essential to life. While there is hope, life goes on. But when hope is gone, everything becomes meaningless.

The golden hour always reminds me that no matter how worst and hopeless life might seem, there would always be something beautiful coming on my way, and that every cloud has a silver lining along with a magnificent rainbow in a calm sky.

Loss of hope is definitely worse than dying. We will all die, but nothing beats a meaningful life all the way until the end, while staying hopeful and having a sense of purpose and dignity.

Today, I am down but not out. I have learned my lessons through the worst. And while life still remains, let hope dwell always with a brightest smile.

This is my personal response to @galenkp’s deep-thought weekend questions for #weekend-engagement concept 123.

”Is there something worse than dying? What is it and why do you feel it is worse? Explain your answer.”


Disclaimer: All texts and photos are my own, unless otherwise stated.



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True.. Losing hope is worse than dying.. You are alive, but seem dead emotionally.. I have experienced one. And it even led me to almost end my life literally.. But God never let it happen..my thoughts have changed and thought of the people I love...
So when you feel hopeless, just think of the people you love,.. Be strong !LADY

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I all agree with your words jane and I so !LUV your wise thoughts. Perhaps my loved ones are my strength at present, and they are the reason why I am moving on and moving forward. Life is really so tough, but we are all tougher than life. Thank you so much for dropping by sis.

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Destructive waves such as death will come to us to make us weak and suffer but there's nothing greater loss when your hope finally drained. It seems life will likely to become colorless while you're still breathing in this world and it's just to hard.

For me hope is one of the things that's binding me to this world. I'm glad that the faint light didn't go out when something terrible occured in my life.

Nice piece btw.

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I all agree with your wise words dear friend, jherro. Whether we like it or not, hopelessness do come no matter how optimistic we are. As for me, death is something that I cannot really handle. I believe all is well with God by my side. Grateful of your time and for your appreciation to my humble content. Have a wonderful day!

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Hope will always give us a reason to want to continue living, because really living without wanting to do so is worse than living. Most of the time there is always something to hold on to in life.

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Perhaps hope give us a meaningful experience to live life to the fullest, and I so agree with you my dear friend. When hope is gone, we are like birds flying without a direction. Personally, hope is something that gives us light like a candle ignited by optimism and enthusiasm. Have a great time my dear friend. I just hope that you are having a great day, and take care.

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This is so emotional and I feel a sense of hope after reading to the end. Truly, when we are faced with something so tough that we cannot get over the shock, we feel hope is lost and what is more to life again? We feel hopeless and think nothing good can come out of us, but the day we realize, there is still hope as long as we are alive, we would feel the ray of light.

I am really inspired by your post to the end. I wish you the best of life and may your dreams come out great 🙏

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Awww I felt your thoughts of love and care, dear friend @princessbusayo. Thank you so much for your time and attention, I truly appreciate it. Let us live with so much hope despite difficulties and struggles in life. Hope is one of the reasons why we are having a sense of purpose on Earth. Sending love to dear friend. Have a nice time and take care always.

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Sorry for your loss. This might be just a phase you have to go through. Hope you feel better. It a hard road ahead but you got support from the community to keep up walking forward.
But this too shall pass.
Do you feel angry right now this too shall pass.
DO you feel good this too shall pass it's all cycles

Hope we can encourage you to feel better
Here is an !ALIVE token

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Awww, those words are so comforting. Thank you so much my dear friend. My sincerest gratitude goes to you for the uplifting words. And yes, the road ahead is not easy but when hope is still alive, life goes on with my loved ones. I am truly grateful of the all out support. Have a nice time my friend and take care.

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I can so very relate to you. Grief and melancholy has such an impact that it feels like more than losing anyone.
Good to hear that you find a way to get out from that feeling.
Well, we can't really but we learn to deal with it.

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Yes, my dear friend remona. It may be so hard to adjust at the beginning, but sometimes, our only choice is to have a sense of understanding so we would be able to accept a hardest truth. In that way, a hopeless soul, little by little becomes hopeful. While we are still
alive, life has a purpose, and it is the reason why we are keep on moving on and moving forward. After all, life is still beautiful. Have a nice time my dear friend, and thank you so much for your attention.

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Your words says how much you have learned from the experience. It's something that no one teach us but we all learned from our grief and loss.
Thanks for your words. Have a good day 🌸🌿☀️

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I am so sorry for you loss @pinkchic, I lost my sister three years ago and the pain is immense, because our love for them is. That is what grief is, a reflection of our love. My three girls prevented me from feeling hopeless, they very much kept me grounded. I know that you sister would want you to focus on making your dreams a reality, to live your life for her as well. Wishing you all the best xxxx

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Awww, thank you so much my dear friend. I thought I have not followed you, clicked it, but I clicked back again, I am sorry for the notification you might see, the follow and unfollow, but that was an honest mistake of clicking thinking that I havent but Inhad already followed before.

By the way, @trucklife-family, much !LUV to you. I am really grateful of your attention. You know, it was never easy but sometimes our only option is to be strong. We just need to be hopeful so we could always move forward despite a tough life. I admit it is really very hard to handle death.

Have a nice time my friend and keep safe always

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