Scared of losing my life just like that.

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Many of us have fears in us, I mean an extreme one at that. With this fear, we feel that is the end of it, especially when you are sick and at the point of death but you don't want to die but living with your beautiful family and friends alone. You want to stay with them while you keep making memories too.

I felt a big fear for the first time in my life and I thought that was the end of it. Besides, no one knew where I went and the fact that the culprit could go scot-free after strangling me is something I kept thinking while the stuff was going on.

I never told anyone even my mom who was so close to me then and also knowing where I would be going straightaway after death was something I got really scared of.

It happened some years ago when I was still doing my NCE programme. There was this young guy in his thirties who was my mom's friend. He would always come over to my mom's shop and spend hours gisting with my mom. Then, he started sighting and wanting to have an interest in me.

One day, he told me to come and visit him at home to help him prepare some soup since he was still a bachelor and since I know he was a friend to my mom, I didn't see anything wrong in that. Though my mistake was not telling my mom about it but went on my own.

My mom sent me on an errand this day and I used the chance to visit his house which wasn't far from where I needed to run errands for my mom. He described the place to me and I got there without any stress.

Getting there, he welcomed me and took me to his guest room where he explained some things to me. I noticed he was closing all doors and windows and that was when the fear in me started growing.

It was so intense that I had to tell him that I need to go back home on time to give my mom feedback. He didn't say anything but was sitting beside me.

The next thing after that was to lift me and carried me to his bedroom. I was pleading for him to let me go but he kept saying “If you shout, I will kill you and no one will know”. Hearing that, my mind was beating faster. Different thoughts coming in. Is this how I will die? Will he rape me?

The fear gripped me so hard that the only thing I was thinking of was death and I kept praying in my mind for God to save me from what I put myself into. While on his bed, he wanted to rape me while he used a pillow to cover my mouth and nose from shouting. I couldn't breathe anymore but was flipping my legs to the right and left.

I was so scared that all I was thinking about was “is this how people are raped? Is this the end for me?”.

Before he could do anything, he heard a knock on his door continuously. He went to see who was there. Maybe he forgot to lock the room or not, I didn't know. When he got there, I heard the conversation and it was some guys who were to come and repair some damages in his house.

Hearing their conversation, I quickly picked up my stuff and dashed out of the house. Those people saw me going out. I didn't even say goodbye to him. He kept looking at me while I hurriedly leave his house and ran for my dear life.

All I could think of was God's grace that day. He sent those people to come at the right time and he didn't do anything else other than use a pillow to block me from shouting for help.

Ever since then, I learnt my lesson never to go to a stranger's house even if they are my mom's friends or not.

That was the last day the man came over to my mom's shop too but I couldn't open my mouth to explain to my mom what happened till she died. It was a secret to me.

After some weeks, I learnt from someone that the guy was a rapist and how he had successfully raped a young girl before he ran away from his former home to where he was living where I went to visit him.

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