9 February 2025, @marianneweat's Freewrite Writing Prompt Day 2742: Lost Confidence

Ella has always been an embodiment of confidence as a first class student amd the vice president of her department she had made her marks with a very sharp intellect
innovative ideas and of course her fearless approach to leadership she had everything she ever wanted her rich parents supportive boyfriend and the best roommate any one could ask for and a team of bright minds who looked up to her loved by most of the lecturers was always bringing trophy's to the school but all of that came crashing in a twinkle of an eye

It was just a single mistake a very small one at that almost seemingly insignificant but changed everything about Ella she was to represent her school in a competition everything was going on just fine until the point of red of red challenge she misread a key point stuttering over her words everywhere became silent with lots of tension for the first time Ella felt her confidence crashing to the ground it's was a minor error but the impact lingered for a long while the school authorities were the least impressed with her performance the award was lost the trophy was gone doubt began to build it's caves in Ella's mind the once confident lady became the shadow of her ownself she began to question every of her moves the self assurance that has defined her over the years began to shake leaving her with nothing but a sense of emptiness it was too much to bear

Day after day her doubts continues to build a high castle in her she avoid group readings team meetings she was unable to make contributions while lectures were going on unlike before Her colleagues who once praised her for her intelligence and brilliance all of a sudden now seems to be moving ahead without her the one time vibrant lady who could stand and command a whole room now found herself shrinking in the background rarely speaks and even second guessing all the decisions she made herself she was indeed lost

One day after yet another fruitless meetings and studies where she was struggling to calm her self down she was confronted by school bullies who had to remind her of how much of a failure she was now rubbing her previous lost glory to her face where she was before and how a mess her life was now and every drop of words created a hole deep down in her mind it was as if the world was on a fast pace while she was just stuck at a place

She did not just lose her confidence she actually lost her self and was about to lose her relationship with her boyfriend who notice her absent mindedness and her un bearing new developed attitude most times he noticed her sitting on one page for more than 30 minutes rereading every single line and paragraphs the very lady he had fallen in love with has broken apart and over time he had asked her what the problem was without any positive reply but on this day Ella replied with a very lost uncertain voice She said Jay to be sincere I don't know what is really happening to me her voice barely heard

I Have Lost My Confidence Jay And I Don't Know How To Get It Back ….